Bitch Me.

Have i ever mention that i HATE (note the usage of hate instead of dislike) gettin' drunk?

Gettin' tipsy is cool but not drunk.

It's fun alright but i still cannot accept the fact that i'll behave in a manner which is so not pleasant.

I really need to get this off my chest cos it is truly bothering me. It's disturbing.

Oh and did i ever mention that i HATE gettin waaaaaaayy high on booze and at the same time i have to drive home. Pfffttt~ Jenjeres tu geng. lol.

All i'm trying to say is, i HATE gettin' drunk, having no recollection of what had happened and having an extremely terrible headache the next day.

One more thing, i HATE gettin' drunk because i know i am not being myself especially on how i behave.

Truly like a bitch. Yes, bitch.

One more thing, i HATE gettin' drunk cos that's when i can't seem to think rationally and gettin' so emotional.

Lastly, i HATE gettin' wasted and jelous at the same time when i really shouldn't be.

I just loathe myself each time i got drunk.

yours truly,
the bitch.

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Beta Faham.

Lately i've been sappy and happy altogether. But i guess i'm feeling the latter more :)

One thing, i show less of my emotions though they're eating me from inside. I don't like the fact that i'd breakdown infront of other(s). I dislike that.

Bukan mau cakap ego bah tu, but it's more in terms of preference.

I made a promise to a friend not to write any related shytes anymore, but i also said that, here (blog) is the only place i prefer blurting things out. Whether or not people gonna read about it, that's a whole different story.

Anyhoots, for the umphteenth times, i totally understand the things we've discussed during one of our usual hangouts. I am very much glad we had that conversation.

Another thing, please leave that bad/guilt/sympathy feeling behind. Save it for other(s) who might need it more. Like i've said, i might say/act on impulse and can be awfully wrong at times but i have my own limits. I know when and where to make serious decision.

Trust me, i understood and still do.

I also know this, you love me and hate seeing me gettin' hurt kaaaaaan? *chuckles* Well well, if that's so, stop being so dramatic. I am going to be just alright bebeh! :)

Jadi, boleh kah kita semua kembali being goofy and just ignore everything? Adeh.

p.s: Try not to think soooo much. You'll only get yourself tangled in more unnecessary heartaches and dilemmas. It's never been easy to please everyone. Remember that.

p.p.s: I honestly and sincerely felt awful knowing that the whole thing still bothers you. Time is all needed. Now chill!!

p.p.p.s: To the rest of the readers if any, i highly recommend Slumdog Millionaire and Changeling. I like Slumdog cos it has a unique plot, depicting real-life in India while i love Changeling simply because it's an autobio movie and the fact that Angejolie is starring in it. Weeee~.

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1 Week.

A lot has been said & done. Yet never really reached for an absolute decision.

For a moment there, I thought we had. But i guessed we hadn't.

I dislike sympathies, either by giving or receiving of course depends on situation laa.

Therefore, i don't need you to tell me when to move on and SYMPATHIZE me by saying what you've said. Not from you, especially not from you.

I'm sure you meant well though and you know i loved you for that! lol. Thank you :)

While i was cruising the other night, eyes fixated on the road, while i kept quiet most of the time and laughed little at your jokes/stories unlike i always do, my mind was actually too preoccupied with stuff.

Somehow, just by the mere presence of you i felt comfort, almost content. Although ironically, you're the caused of my thinking alot.

However lately, i sense that you've been happy. Happier than usual. I guessed i know why and trust me if i tell you, i am happy for you.

I am sincerely happy for you, teman :)

I know i hesitated to "help" you initially, but now i take it back. I am more than glad to give you a hand. Just ask, i'll do it itupun mau depends laa. lol.

Anyhoots, i wish you again goodluck and a very happy ending in the end. It's about time you have one! hehehe.

p.s: If only you were sound enough w/o the effect of booze that night, i would probably jump into that idea of '1 week' coz i really liked that. I can pretty much tell we can click although akan berdebate in almost all topics!. And if we really do, that is what terrify me the most.

To the parrot who annoys me most.

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Short Update.

When i said short, i really really really see how i repeat the same word 3 times to emphasize it mean a short one.

There are so many stuff to blog about but since it's ashwed, i feel obligated to be honest. Failure to update is caused by MALAS. (^_^)v~

Anyways, i have resumed my love in reading. Currently i have my time preoccupied with 'Ugly' by Constance Briscoe.

I fancy more on non sci-fi books compared to sci-fis and typical love stories, though i've nothing against them :)

Okaylaa. Post kali ni khas untuk Cik Ara yang i'm pretty sure sudah/sedang/akan maki hamun saya for not updating for quite a bit. Maaf ye Cik amoi. LOL.

Serious materials will be jotted down, soon.

..or not.

toodles!

p.s: Happy Ashwed people! :)

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How I Spent My Valentine :)

Just for the record, i might sound pathetic saying this but i do admit, i've never really celebrated Valentine's before. Either with friends or boyfriend.

For the past Valentines', i usually just lazed around the house and did nothing. While dear boyfriend (during those years) was far apart. Long distance relationship kan, biasalaa *chuckles*

Anyhoots, guessed 2009 isn't that bad after all.

At least, for the first time, i get to spend it with good friends tho' there were some M.I.A having loads of fun! YAYS!

Courtesy of Ms. Cornelia, this is how i (we) spent our Valentine :p

p.s: Everyone had fun although i'm sure it'll be a blast having the rest of the clan with us that night!

p.p.s: Whoever says singles can't have fun on Valentine's?? semua yang tertera dalam picture are singles!! wahhahahaha.

p.p.p.s: Thx guys. Thx for being my Valentine *smiles*

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Almost.

Almost
By: Tamia

[Verse 1]
Can you tell me
How can one miss what she's never had
How could I reminisce when there is no past
How could I have memories of being happy with you boy
Could someone tell me how can this be
How could my mind pull up incidents
Recall dates and times that never happened
How could we celebrate a love that's to late
And how could I really mean the words I'm bout to say

[Chorus]
I missed the times that we almost shared
I miss the love that was almost there
I miss the times that we use to kiss
At least in my dreams
Just let me take the time and reminisce
I miss the times that we never had
What happened to us we were almost there
Whoever said it's impossible to miss when you never had
Never almost had you

[Verse 2]
I cannot believe I let you go
Or what I should say I should've grabbed you up and never let you go
I should've went out with you
I should've made you my boo boy
Yes that's one time I should've broke the rules
I should've went on a date
Should've found a way to escape
Should've turned a almost into
If it happened now its to late
How could I celebrate a love that wasn't real
And if it didn't happen why does my heart feel

[Chorus]
I missed the times that we almost shared
I miss the love that was almost there
I miss the times that we use to kiss
At least in my dreams
Just let me take the time and reminisce
I miss the times that we never had
What happened to us we were almost there
Whoever said it's impossible to miss when you never had
Never almost had you

[Verse 3]
(sometimes I wanna rub ya, some nights I wanna hug ya)
And you seem to be the perfect one for me
You (some nights I wanna touch ya but tonight I wanna love ya)
You're all that I ever wanted
And you're my everything yes its true
Boy its hard to be close to you
My love
I know it may sound crazy
But I'm in love with you

[Chorus]
I missed the times that we almost shared
I miss the love that was almost there
I miss the times that we use to kiss
At least in my dreams
Just let me take the time and reminisce
I miss the times that we never had
What happened to us we were almost there
Whoever said it's impossible to miss when you never had
Never almost had you

I missed the times that we almost shared
I miss the love that was almost there (sometimes I wanna rub ya)
I miss the times that we use to kiss
At least in my dreams
Just let me take the time and reminisce (but tonight I wanna love ya)
I miss the times that we never had
What happened to us we were almost there
Whoever said its impossible to miss when you never had
Never, never almost had you (but tonight I wanna love ya)


p.s: Agak sial lyrics ini. Ada sixth sense kah apa si Tamia ni? Ohh. Suka ko perli sia ahh Tamia. Awas anda. Pfft~!

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Chentaday :)

Oh cupid, i don't mind you being careless and all for not being able to aim correctly..like almost most of the time. It's okay, i forgive you. Try to aim better the next time around k? :)

Oh cupid, since my mr. valentine is no where to be seen/heard, can you do me a huge favour please?

Cupid cupid, please don't be stingy and make full use of your bow & love arrows aiming at everyone. It saddens me to watch hatred and animosity goin on in the world today :(

Oh cupid, let everyone know that there is ALWAYS at least a person who loves him/her.

Hey cupid, doesn't it amuse you to watch everyone is acting and treating their love ones lovingly on Valentine's day? It sure makes me feel good inside :)

One last wish cupid.

Make everyday as Valentine's Day.

p.s: I've learned that, there isn't much to lose by giving more than receiving.

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M.O.H & Bohol.

In just a few more hours time, people *coughs* LOVERS would be be busy celebrating Vday. Infact, i'm guessin' they have already preparing for it since..er..tonight? LOL.

Anyways, wishin' HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY to all humans baybieee!!

*clears throat*

As mentioned in the previous post, Megan's mom dropped by right? yes hilda darling, it's Megan Imbayan lah dat hee~

Apparently, Megan wanted me to become her Maid Of Honour a.k.a M.O.H on her wedding day which falls somewhere around June. Yes, it's this year. So Girl..no, bukan baju grad! LOL.

And to you Ms. Corn, the measurements taken are actually for the dress/gown/sarong/watever outfit i shall be wearing on Megan&Randy's big day. YAY!

Sudahlaa i feel honoured doing so, considering that she's a very very old and good friend of mine, things just couldn't get any better!

*grins*

Guess what guys. The wedding will be held in the Phils bebeh!!

What? nda jelas? i said, PHILLIPINES.

OH WAIT, do i smell jelousy? MUAHAHAHAHA!

Kejap kejap, ada lagi..as if that is not enough, remember when i said the wedding will take place in June? Well, we'll be leaving for Manila on the 3rd of June (wedding is on the 6th) and on the very next day after our arrival in Manila is MY BIRTHDAY!! I get to spend it in the Phils!! WEEEEE~!!

Jelous? jelous? wakakakakka.

Eh hold on. I'm missin' one part here. Oh did i mention that the outfit i'll be wearing will be tailormade in the Phils too? Hmmm...from the way i see it, i guess the baju most probably gonna be one of the Pinoy's traditional outfit, which made it even COOOOLLEEEERRR!!!

Just think about it, berapa kali would any of us get the chance of wearing their traditional costumes on wedding days huh? Slim aye? *smirks*

Okay laa. Penat sudah sia mau menjeleskan anda semua especially kamurang2 yang terasa itu - you girls know who you are HAHAHA.

ONE SEC!

I forgot to mention another itsy bitsy info. The wedding will be held not in Manila or anywhere you guys think it would be laa. *sighs*

Oh don't worry, it'll just be held in Bohol.
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Bohol ISLAND.

WAKAKAKAKAKAKAAKA.

Oh man. Telling you guys all of these suddenly made me feel bad for getting this opportunity all F.O.C. *tahan ketawa*

Have fun readin' my best post ever guys! *winks*

p.s: Len, jadi ka ni mlm ni? I really wanna go but teda transport! Let's just cross our fingers for last minute miracles to happen! heee~

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Iklan Jap.

In a bit more i'm off to have a date with Mr. Valkyrie in Growball.

While waiting, i shall let you guys know that i had just met Megan's a very very good & old friend of mine since kindergarten-primary-high school! parents.

Her parents dropped by at my house just a while ago to get my measurements.

Ahh. Misti kamurang fikir measurements untuk apa kan?

THAT i shall update later on, second part of my current post *chuckles*

Okay i'm off now pipol!

p.s: Girl, tag anda tuh, nanti2 laa ah. You know how much i dislike doing tags but enjoy reading it very much! haha.

.xx.

She Smiles :)

Just a short one here.

I shouldn't be saying/blogging about this actually.

BUT

I seriously had a good time just chatting, laughing, debating, arguing and goofing around with you last night.

Thank you, you.

p.s: I am truly sorry about our plan of Mr. Val aah. Betul2 nda singaja tu -___-"

p.p.s: Anyso, i think i've already justified myself right right right?? :D

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