It’s not the tees. It’s me.

I heart: "Sharon imisusomuch."

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Today's the last day of Sept huh?

Tomorrow is Dad's bornday. Love you
Dadi. :)

Raya 2008 falls tomorrow too.

How time flies.

Each passing day indicates that I am a step closer to home.

I am thrilled yet..afraid.

I wonder why.

I loathe it so much when I go all mellow again. Coz' when that happens, I tend to write sappy stories.

Like now.

Recently, I've been happy. Not that I wasn't happy before but, you know, just happier I guess? Or was I feelin' glad? Content?

I've always had tough times expressing what I truly feel towards a person. To have experience what I've experienced recently isn't helping at all. Well maybe it did. It helped me to build even thicker fortress. It's so thick, I feel like I am incarcerated by it.

A good buddy asked me recently.

"You really thought it's because of those shirts?"

I said yes. Though deep inside, my instinct tells me that it isn't. Or maybe that's what I wanted to believe.

But, I guess I've managed to condition myself not to be fooled twice. I had my defense up to protect myself this time. It was hard for you to gain my trust since the get-go but I guess it's even harder for me to trust or to even believe words now. Though I really really wanted to, you just have no idea. I guess you never did.

We're actually in the same boat, Bug.

You're so good when it comes to rationalizing situations. So, think for once. Why do you think i said what I've said? Why am I acting this way?

Have any of you ever been sky-high just to find yourself rocketed down and hit the ground? I did that to a person (it was never planned nor was it because of a third party) and I know it sucked coz' I got my fair share on it as well =p

As soon as you fell onto the ground, the wisest thing to do is to be proactive the next time around.

That's exactly what I am doin' Bug. You should've known better, riiiigggght? Xp

Pendek kata, I am just a silly girl who is trying to protect herself from getting' hurt, TWICE :)

Look, I apologize if I've ever disappoint or made you go berserk at times k. I did those with good reasons bukan saja ja suka2 mau buat.

I don't know whether you're gonna buy whatever shyte I write here coz' as you always like to put it, I am the ultimate LIAR, remember?

Well at least I've tried explaining.

Maybe.

Just maybe, this is why I am scared.

I just hate this feeling.

 

I am feeling down and sappy.

You get what that means?

I guess you don't.

Like always.

 

.xx.

Cousins Day Out.

I heart: "Uiks shenis ah? hmm remember dear. U r MINE! Jaga...hehehe"

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*taps keyboard*

Cousin Kelor and i have just reached home (Shah Alam) somewhere around 2pm today. We've spent a couple of days at cousin Una's just for fun. While we were there, there weren't many things we managed to do (except for balik2 pi makan laa. Thanx Pang Ko! =p )

Below are some pics taken during our short stay in Puchong.


First night: On our way to grab something to eat. (i loike this pic!)


On our way back home from dinner (supper)

Couz Abet lemme drove the unfamiliar route back home! =p

The very next day was a Sunday. So all of us decided to go out to jalan2 cari makan. Then we went to Elianto warehouse sale xD. We took pics all the way to our destinations.

Pictures like these:

Left: Couz Kelor with baby Kaylyn on lap. Right: Couz Abet.

Yes. I know i look uber chubby there. That's because i am. *sighs*


Ako with baby Xiao Hui staring curiosly at me =/

We (the cousins) shopped like nobody's business at Elianto. But paling terer si Una jugalaa. Men banyak! LOL! We spent approx. RM200 at Elianto's. Ndala saturang baa. I mean if we total up altogether.

These are basically the stuffs we've purchased.

Girls' stuff.

What's the use of makeups if you don't put them on right? Sooo, the cousins have decided to play doll for a bit.

*chuckles*

Right after that, we did just what the oh-so-typical girl love to do. CAMWHORING! haha.

Ouh. Did i mention that, twas the longest camwhoring session i've had in my life so far! Sampai ngantuk baa. LOL! To upload just A FEW of them would be a wise thing to do. *sweats*

Muntah darah karang kamurang. Haha.

Here goes.





I guess that's all for now. Am so bloody fed-up uploading these pics.

*scratches head*



p.s: Thanx for the sunnies Bet. I'm lovin' it!

*hugs*


.xx.

I’m all psyched up and whoa-ed!

I heart: "U know wat? I was expecting fer yer msg dr td.hmmm.klah. lowbat ni. Me maybe blk umah jam 3 or 4 gitu. Me nda curang jg. Me oledi got u kan. Jajal one."

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I have posted one earlier on.

So, I'm just gonna post another one just for fun. Ok?

Heck.

This is my blog anyways. I can screw with it anytime I want.

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As mentioned, I'm anticipating a lot of stuffs nowadays. I get all psyched up just by the thought of graduating within few more months, our batch trip to one of the beaches, cousin day-out tomorrow, outing with sister Grace on Tuesday and lastly, I can't wait to get my hands on my…

HUGO BOSS XX PERFUME!

*does the hula dance*

Now that I've already got myself that, I'll find a way to get Victoria Secret Dream Angel Divine Eau De Parfume (I heartheartheart the smell!) but I'm not in a hurry la. I'll ask Megan to get it for me in the States.

*smiles wickedly*

HOLD ON.

I think I also need to get a pair of footwear (it can range from shoes/flipflops/heels/sandals etc. It depends heavily on the design) for an everyday wear to class (especially supaya tia kena 'tendang' keluar dari library. I know. WTF! right?)

Hangkang sudah bah the one sia slalu pakai. Hehe.

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Kepada abangku, Jerry, you managed to find me (though I know it's really not that hard at all considering we're currently living in the IT era where everythingwell almost is just clicks away). Again, you found me.

Pppffttt~!

Anyways, WELCOME
jugalaa kasi kau. LOL! Ndaba. You're always welcome here *winks*

 

p.s: Abang, I've read your blog. What's with the whole "model" thingy? Muahahaha.

 

Hey cupid. Since my bro has already found out about our lil' secret talk, tulung cari his tulang rusuk also ok.

Remember, aim bagus2 k :)

 

 

.xx.

Capati Blisters.

I heart: "Hee..muax. Me mau p hug my mumi2 first."
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I was awaken today by the sound of my stomach. Growling furiously demanding to be filled with solid edible substance. Tried to ignore it tapi susah betul. So i gave up.

Couz Kelor and i went into the kitchen and tingu2 apa buli dimakan or masak. Twas very hard actually to determine what we wanted to eat. So i popped the question to her.

"Ui. Kamurang ada tepung ka?"

She casually replied while shoving a bag of what seemed to be filled with white powdery substance.

"Ada. Ni kali ni. Ui ndala. Ni tepung pulut ni."

-_____-"

Fast forward, we manage to find the flour and i prepared some simple capati-like pancake. I cooked.

Wait.

What? I CAN COOK? hahaha.

In the end, i did a pretty good job bah i think. *smiles widely* It wasn't that hard or anything like that at all. *speaks arrogantly*

Okaaay. Maybe i exaggerated a bit.

I developed blisters on the palm of my right hand and on the side of my right middle finger from holding the "sudip". The funny thing is, i was holding it for about 15-20mins tops ONLY.

-_____-"

Payah rupanya memasak ni.

Si Shahrul, our lecturer yang suka "buli" sia di class once told me that, one way to tackle a man's heart is through his stomach.

Guess i need to find someone who could stand a lousy cook for the rest of his life then.

Like, seriously.

Hey cupid. Note that one k :)

.xx.

I Got Talent.

I heart: "Wei. man say pun ilovyo?"
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I actually went thru my old blog in FS. (Yes. the whole posts dated from 3 years back! LOL!) When suddenly one of the many posts i've "abandoned" so long finally caught my attention.

Maybe, just maybe mom and dad should've enrolled me into one of that special schools where they sharpen the skills of "gifted" children, like me. Coz i think i'm one of them.

PSYCHIC.

whoa! i know.

Below is part of the content i've extracted from that particular post. Please take note that this whole scenario happened 3 years back, June 8th 2005 to be exact. Jadi jangan terbingung k. Thank you.

"Ahh…i’ve always got this question stuck in my head..in the previous post i mentioned that i’ve found someone right??..well there’s no doubt about that..but..why do i feel so…insecure yet i know that i am secure with him?…like maybe will i lost him not only as a partner but as a dear friend in the future??..what if things don’t work-out like the way i(we) planned?…since i’ve got him,i feel so relieved but at the same time wonder a lot..alotta questions popped in my mind every single day..."

"...what IF this is just a phase?what IF this is all temporary?…i would hate myself for that…that’s why i am not really into commitment…afraid of gettin hurt..afraid of hurting the person u cared the most..afraid of doin’ wrong..or maybe afraid of LOSING him/her?..aarrgghh…hate it when this happens.."

The highlighted parts, have already happened. Heh. See, told you i've got talent.

Readin' what i've written years back caused me to reminisce of all the decisions i've made and taken throughout my short and very little encounter in relationship matters, throughout my life so far.

Came to think of it, semua sia yg minta clash ni. Of course on different grounds laa. Ndakan sama right?

BUT.

One thing for sure, it was never because of a third party okay. Just wanna be clear on that.

I guess, i am the one who is afraid of commitments after all huh? If this is true, then i shouldn't rush things. Somehow, i have the feeling i got talent remember? that i'd do the same thing i do "best" all over again; hurting people i care. *sighs*

I'm gonna take one step at a time this time.

Hey cupid. panah ngam2 ba next time.

.xx.

Pave Way To BBKK.

I heart: " I love skc!"
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Kalau kamurang notice in the cbox (chatbox), there were several times where the "shirt" has been mentioned. Some of you may already have clear idea of makhluk apaka itu. On the other hand, certain "species" deasy and soothe kakakaka may not have any idea.

Jadi, i'd like to show the shirt which i (and couz kelor) heart heart heart so much!

[ This is the shirt la. "BuliBaKalauKau" (BBKK in short).]

[Yang ini pula adalah tuan punya shirt yg kegirangan pada waktu itu. Lantas, mensnap picha. lol!]

.xx.

MITAGI

I heart: "Mulau. Kastau bah if u jalan."
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"MITAGI"


"I never thought a word i have especially designed could "haunt" me to this extent.

This word, a 6 lettered word i came up with for someone, a person whois dear to me.

It's been awhile since i "neglect" the name, just to makesure i moved on.

And it is my last wish to have people mentioning the same name infront/to me, especially not from him.

I know i should be heading miles ahead already by then. But, if you must wonder, WHY?

Coz' i think i still heart you."

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There! i've just said it. I confessed. But it doesn't mean i am taking a step back. I'm not ready to give up on myself just yet. I believe i am close to winning line.

I have to believe.

I must believe.

Frankly speaking, i'm an idiot, aren't i?

.xx.

3 Of My Favourite Things.

I heart: "Andu so nice. Ya me serious dat.. N biarlah u ckp pointless. Bg me, it doesn't matter .. I believe in love."

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Actually, i've posted this on my FS blog already. However, i just feel like i owe .the.twisted.parrot. its fair share on it.

Firstly, i know i’ve mention that the previous post was gonna be the end of my blog here in FS. I’m sorry, sia langgar. hehe.

Actually, i wasn’t in the mood of blogging (especially with piled up works which shud be gettin’ my #1 attention at the moment). But as i was browsing around FS, i found something. Something which made it hard not to blog about it.

Initially, i wanted to ramble about it in another blog account in blogspot. However, due to some technical problems (i can’t logged in!) and not wanting the idea/material to go to waste, i decided to blog about it here instead. Tgklaa..maybe nanti sia copy and paste this post into that account =p

As mentioned, i was browsing around in FS when i “stumbled” upon one particular picture. It’s nothing special with it to be honest, but to me, somehow i find it significant. It was that significant to me up til’ the extent of creating that mellow feeling wanting to look at it few times.
There are 3 of my favorite things summed up into one picture; the place, the person and the caption especially.

At this point of time, i knew it. I suck big time.

It’s too bad tho’ i can’t say more about it. I refuse to. I’ve gone so far and am not willing to go back to square one. Eh, ingat senang kaa?…hard work you know. *chuckles*

Okaylaa. I think i should just put an end here. Karang i go mellow2 pula. LOL!

Ouh, and another thing, i don’t wanna be the ‘just-another-girl’. Treat me like an ass (please!) for all i care. Just don’t place me at par with the rest of them. I dislike it, very, very much.

sasayka, but wants it to go away~

.xx.

Blablabla...yada².

I heart: "Ok muvie mode jap. miss u den"
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I was given a chance. Yes, a frigin' CHANCE to go back home in kk during Raya. Dadi gave me the green light. I usually would just jump to that opportunity regardless of anything at all.

BUT.

Napa sia reject?!

They say, if you really love someone (in this case it's a 'something'), you gotta set it free and if it comes back, you know it's yours.

I guess this is one of those cases. So i set that "milliondollar-worth" opportunity free and...


FEEL LIKE A MORON! and i doubt chance like this will ever come back.


Haiseehh. Skemanya sia ni ndamau skip class kunun. Since when Den? WHEN??


.xx.

1st Tag!

I heart: "U driving ka now dear? bah drivesafe ah. Tc and enjoy yer nite :-p.. mari jumpa :-p"
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I was TAGGED by miss Marilyn Deasy. So here goes..

[At what age do you wish to marry]
♥ I've no frigin' idea man. Before 30's i guess.

[What is your most favourite thing to do]
♥ So far, i must say, piggin' out! (zzzing included k.)

[What would you give up in return to eat all you want in the world and not get fat]
♥ I'd give up never to skip any meals. heeee~

[If you can have 1 dream to come true, what would it be]
♥ For my DREAMSSS to come true. =p

[Do you believe you can survive without money]
♥ That's pure bul*shiet hun.

[What are you afraid to lose the most]
♥ FnFs.

[What do you feel like doing right now]
♥ Honestly, piggin' out. *smacks head*

[If there’s someone that you love, would you confess to him/her]
♥ Not until he confessed to me first (if he ever laa. lol!)

[List out 3 good points of the person who tagged you]
♥ 1. Kuat makan nda pandai gemuk.
2. Preeeeeetttyyy! damnit. Kekeke.
3. Smart-ass. xD

[What are the requirements that you wish from your other half]
♥ Just to be able to complete me. (Bukan bermaksud he has to be perfect okay.)

[What is the thing that will make you think he/she is bad]
♥ Loads!

[What is your ambition]
♥ Currently, i wanna be a prominent figure in the business industry. At least in my parents' eyes.

[Is anyone really perfect]
♥ No darlin'.

[If you had a choice to be rich or happy, which one would you pick]
♥ This, really depends.

[If you have a chance, which part of your character you would like to change]
♥ Procrastinator! and so much more! *sighs*

[Who is the person that you can share all your problems with]
♥ My both bcfs and bff.

[How do you see yourself in 10 years time]
♥ I really wanna see myself to have at least achieved SOME of the things i've planned in life. *crosses fingers*

[If someone had found a path to immortality to be bestowed upon you]
♥ Jadi? nda habis soalan ko ni.

[If you could compete in the Olympics, what event would you participate in]
♥ Hrrmmm....*continues hrmmm-ing*

[What does happiness means to you and are you satisfied with what you’ve got? Would you select satisfaction over happiness]
♥ Happiness is such a strong and broad word that not a single word could describe it. It's to be felt, not gauged. No, i'm not satisfied..yet. Sometimes, happiness is equivalent to satisfaction. But then again, it depends. SO can't really answer this now hehe. Siou!


I TAG OJOI, PRISH, CYNTH & JANE!


Bahh..jawab kamurang..macam survey ja ni. LOL!


.xx.

Sangat Bosan!

I heart: "Poser.mari kita kaple.jom."

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Bullshyte 1:

I had a brief meeting with the rest of the "AJKs" regarding our trip to Pantai Sepat in Kuantan which will be conducted few weeks from now.

I AM REALLY LOOKING FORWARD FOR IT! Weee~

My team members and i have arranged a few "interesting" games on that day and trust me, they're gonna be soo old school! MUAHAHAHA!

Some of the games we had in mind are:

• Limbo Rock owhh yeaah bebeh!
• Galah panjang it's been awhile since we last play that!
• Sukaneka wtf?? <----- other members' idea okaaay. *rolleyes*
• Truth or dare?
• Spin the bottle?
• Volleyball (kalau ada bola and tiang for the net laa)

..to be continued.

All these games, however are yet to be confirmed. Therefore we still have enough time to make amendments whatsoever.

Bullshyte 2:

Dadi gave me a ring this morning while i was in class. I didn't answer him coz was too busy doing catchin' ups. Anyways, i have managed to text him and it went:

Anakanda: "In class..nokuro?"

Ayahanda: "Call me back later"

And so i did as told. He kinda knew about my "plan" of goin back kk during this coming Raya break thanx to sis karen laitu Panjang baa break sia. If i have calculated correctly, i'm gonna have a good 17 days break altogether! woohoo~!

But since the airfare was over-the-top, i decided to tanam my angan² laa *sighs*

Dadi on the other hand was kind enough to "compensate" me (and sis ojoi) RM300 extra for the month. HAHAHA!

Thanx Dy!!

GWE SAYANG BANGET SAMA LHO!

*chuckles*

p.s: Some of the recent posts have encountered some errors in their editings, which cannot be rectified. So, sila maafkan saya for the looong and paragraph-less postings k?

.xx.

I Got Punk'd..by "SHARON".

I heart: "Hey org mabuk! Waaaake up!"

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I've been missing out blogging few days. It's non-other because of the net connection here (apartment) just sucks. Bayangkan baa, it couldn't even managed to upload a whole page (window) without getting any errors. *smacks head* Therefore, my blog will be updated only when i have ample of time to do so and of course kalau rajin laa. ngeh3..

In one of my previous post, i've posted that Bug had actually said (texted) "Lveyou Sharon" right?

My bad.

I, Sharon a.k.a Inden is hereby to announce that it was a false alarm. I repeat, FALSE ALARM!

I went thru Bug's profile in fs, and i found another person by the name "Sharon" i wanna change my name, can? testified saying something which can be considered as "mushy²" stuff. I don't really give a shyte about that laa coz bein the player as he already is, i simply brushed it off. I thought, "Ouh..another girl caught his bait".

However, a strong urge of wanting to check her profile made me do so i don't usually go about checking others', especially strangers' profile in fs Once i was in, i went straight for her testimonials section. And guess what? My instinct was right all along. She received a 'positive' testimonial from Bug as well.

CeLaKaa! kana tipu bah sia!

What the fcuk was i thinking??

Of course the previous sms was for her, NOT me.

-__-"

So, dengan berat hati, saya pun telah meringankan jari untuk mendelete sms tersebut.

DEMMET!

It hurts but at the same time, it's good to know =) [+] funny juga laa. Hahaha.

.xx.

Greeeaatt. JUST GREAT!

I heart: "Iyaa.. Bah enjoy urself der..jgn biar diri anda d urat2 sana ah. Remember.. U are MINE!"

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I am so bloody pissed off with myself!

How can i forget to save my work into my pendrive???

I've just wasted my time and energy goin back and forth campus - apartment - town, only to find out my work hadn't been saved!

Fu*ker!

Aaarrgghh!!! urrgghh.

shoot me already!

.xx.

Good Tyms xD

I heart: "Dear...me ngantuk uda oh.. U takecare ah. Jgn jajal2 sana. Drive safe and pleaselah jgn mabuk. Text me when u reach home k."

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Uploaded by cuzzie calor =)

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A Supposed To Be Day 6.

Yes. Today was suppose to be one of the days where i had/need to jog. Apparently, i didn't due to lack of energy, not mentioning was a bit LAZY. Bein the lazybum that i already am, it was very hard for me to drag myself out of bed just now.

I know i shouldn't be blaming anyone or anything but i must say i put a "tiny" blame on my biological clock. Lately i've been having inconsistent sleeping time whereby i would usually get my sleep during wee hours or ending up having none at all. So, it somehow screwed my sleeping time and i guess i've gotten my biological clock in haywire too! xp

Anyways, tomorrow's gonna be an extremely hectic day; lectures throughout the day - morning til' night. So i guess i have to skip another jogging moment there. I'll "replace" it on Saturday then.

p.s: I really wanna put the links of all the blogs which i fancy reading but i just can't figure out how. I can't seem to be able to upgrade my template. Thus, restricting me from enjoying the additional widgets and applications, which i honestly think i really need. Boring bah layout sia..kamurang tinguk laa. Manada apa2 ni.. *smacks head*

Til next time.

.xx.

Day 5.

Had a jog today tho' twas bit chilly out there. I find it harder to jog/exercise during cold weather, don't you guys think so? hmm.

Anyways, won't be blogging much today tho'. I've got some asses to get "rid" off by tomorrow morning. So i better keep myself pumping already!

p.s: Bug crosses my mind again today, which was very hard to ignore. Thus, i made a fool of myself (again) by sending him a short sms. As usual, no reply. *smacks head*

SILLY ME!

Til then.

.xx.

First of The Ninth Month.

It's already September. Approximately 2 months after Bug and i officially called it a quit. Back then, i expected myself to be able to get over him already around this time. Boy am i wrong. *sighs* But i am at least be able to control it already lah. I just have to spare myself some more time, i'll get there =)

Nonetheless, i still do miss him.

p.s: Bug, sasayka and i loathe myself for that.

I'll be okay. I'll get there. Give me time.

I promise.

.xx.

It Hurts. Alot!

I know i've posted one earlier. I am feeling so down that i feel like telling/jotting/writting on something. I chosed to blog.

Bug said, "Lveyou Sharon"

"Love you too Bug", i whispered to myself. If only you can see it. =(

It hurts alot not being able to tell him that. I don't wanna repeat the same mistake twice ='(

Can i make today an exception? i feel like breaking down. i brokedown.

='(

It hurts alot.

Happy 51st Independence Day, Malaysia! / Day 4.

Regardless of the above blog title, i did nothing today on this significant day. LOL!

I do ponder tho', of the current political scenario and some other current issues goin on in our country. (Which obviously i don't really care much coz they just suck.)

Anyways, last night my dad texted me wishing me "Happy Merdeka!" LOL! which i find very sweet of him and funny at the same time. So i replied him just the same =p It never fails to give me that certain kind of indescribable feeling whenever my dad or mom would contact me (i.e call or text) for no apparent reason. Cos when it happens, you know that they are thinking of you =)

[I THINK OF YOU ALL THE TIME TOO, MOM-DY. You guys are the L.O.V.E of my life. ILOVEYOU.]

Last night also, i texted and called Bug. Wanted to just have a casual talk with him. Goof around as usual. However, NOT suprisingly, he wasn't available. Hmmm. Guessed he was having such a blast or he takut bini dia marah kali tu. LOL!

I'll be out for a quick jog later on. Am trying to "burn" those excessive carbs from piggin' out last night. *sighs*

.xx.