May.

I don't know how to say it, but am feeling a bit sebak after the brief conversation just now.

:(

Anyhoots, tho' am feeling a bit sad/down (which i don't really know why. Maybe it's because of the thought of 'losing' someone?), i honestly am happy for you :)

You go do the right thing! You got my support, whether or not anda sedar all these while :)


p.s: Plan for tonight macam has been cancelled ja ni. So, guess i'll be catching movie(s) again. LOL.

p.p.s: May, is approaching very soon. Trust me, skijap ja tu :(

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Flown Away & Long Gone.

The butterflies i had previously have flown away. My bad for thinking that they were meant to stay.

Thanx to you nonetheless for making me feel all ticklish once again :)

Anyhoots, i just came back from watching Ong Bak 2 with sis Karen and some friends.

Was supposed to join the ging tonight to Rumba but i just had to pass like last night as well, sorry! because i don't feel like partying...for the time being.

Went to watch late night movie (Underworld: Rise of The Lycans) at 1B last night. Regardless of what people said about that movie, i think twas quite good. The story is a flashback of the previous Underworld which the HOT Kate Beckinsale berlakon.

Berbalik kepada Ong Bak 2, hmmm..wasn't bad as well although i fancy Ong Bak 1 more. I probably wouldn't have watched it if it wasn't because of si Wawai minta kawan pi pasar malam pilipin to get gelang-gelang for his friends/colleagues in the West. Alasan dia, mau prumpuan tolong pilih cos he's clueless (and it was proven to be sooo true!).

Oh! a guy will always be a guy. LOL.

Can't wait to watch movies in February! Banyaaaak yang besh!

Bah k laa, i better get some sleep now. I reckon it's gonna be a long and tiring day tomorrow(today) -____-"


p.s: "..jap, me berdansa nih.."
Oh sangat kiut! (^__^)

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Butterflies & Lubdub.

It shouldn't be like this. I mean, since when?

Bukan first time jumpa/nampak dia pun. Baaaanyak kali sudah.

BUT.

Again, WHY did i feel different just now? I can feel butterflies fluttering in my tummy and it tickles tickles me.

It's ticklish :)

Even my heart went 'lubdublubdub' on me. Demmet.

WHY IS THAT?

Please please please don't tell me what i think it is.

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NY's Resolution?

(While waiting for Girl to arrive and hit the club with the rest of the bunch)

I really shouldn't be blogging about this...anymore.

Not after making a promise to myself ada new year resolution lagi tuu adeyh.

Why is it that i can fall for someone whom i know doesn't feel the same? Tapi tepa..itu mimang perkara biasa kan? LOL.

Tapi,

Why do i hate the person whom i love to have around me? Lawak kan? Hmm.

I thought i moved on so well already by then. I guessed i was wrong. Not entirely wrong, partially maybe.

I am so positive of that because just a few minutes ago i asked myself,

"Why am i not feeling all 'YEAY' for tonight's plan?"

I can hear that little voice inside of me saying,

"Coz he ain't around :("

Jadi apalaa maksud tu? Astagaaa. *smacks head*

Okies. Better be gettin' ready now. Girl is on her way.

p.s: It's really hard to actually hate someone you feel the total opposite of, no matter how much you tried convincing yourself. It's just a matter of time (hopefully).

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Gong Xi Fatt Chai!

It's never too late to wish all the celebrants (and non-celebrants) GONG XI FATT CHAI!!

I just got back from kampung which is in Ranau.

It's been awhile since we, the cousins hungout and had fun; gambling/talking/laughing/chatting and especially goofy-ing!! i have the goofiest cousins, like for real!

It's feels like you're always 10 or less when hanging out with them. Seeemuaa dari tuuuaaa sampai muda will act sangat kebudak-budakan, and yes kami sedar and yes, we still mimick the whole act. Macam disease baaa...Extremely hard not to join along LOL.

Anyhoots, i think imma have my own sweet time dulu ni. Plan on getting a dress with si Girl but she's still in Tenghilan. Guess i should cancel my plan then.

Or should i?? LMFAO.

GONG XI FATT CHAI again people! *winks*

p.s: jo, thanx for the chat last night, u really made me feel all good :) i laf u! and you too jane *chuckles*

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Days Fu*ked Up.

It's hard to please everyone :(

It's hard to keep it all inside, try to bottled them nicely with colourful ribbons around it, fingers crossed that everything will eventually go away A.S.A.P :(

After last night's "joke" which had slowly turned out to be disappointment and heartache, today's happenings are just thrice the shit.

I can't handle even the silliest jokes like i always do.

I seriously feel that i am emotionally unstable.

I don't know why but i just brokedown. I wanna go far away :(

Sit and just cry my eye-socket out.

Both yesterday and today are just too much! :(

For once, i really feel unappreciated & lost :(


p.s: I hope your days are better you guys. I seriously do.

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:)

I'm happy :)

I mean, not that happy (maybe i am!), i'm just glad my day's a lil' brighter compared to yesterday.

I guess i am happy for the time being after all.

There it goes again. It tickles tickles me *chuckles*

p.s: Thanx for willingly acting goofy with me. I had good time!

Thank you, you.

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Oh Boy.

I apologize for failing to update my blog, not as often as i used to. sorry especially kat ngko, ara. aku tau ko bengang kan? siap nak suh aku close account jek. LMAO.

I went out with"babes" just now. I agreed to accompany him for dinner though i didn't feel like goin out. Since i've already turned down his offers so many time, it's only fair that i go this time. Besides, i thought that maybe we can do some catchin' ups.

Hmm..honestly, it's been a lil' awkward whenever just the two of us around. Dead silence ni baa. Bukan ndamau cakap or strike conversation but i know just what he's thinking and i'm not sure how/what to react.

I've made it clear then, and still adhering to it now.

I'm really sorry :( but if he keeps on acting like that, i'm afraid i might need to take a more drastic approach. And i don't want that to happen. palis2.

Anyhoots, we went out for dinner at Upperstar and throughout dinner, i was too preoccupied with the net connection, commenting and chatting in FB with fnfs. LMAO.

Bukan apaa, teda cerita sama dia kan, dua2 pun ndatau pa mau cakap so it'll be better if i do something else yang fun! hehehe.

K laa, better hit the sack now. Tomorrow is my last day as an intern :) Gotta get some rest now.


p.s: It's good to know that you can get along with my friends easily :)

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:(

I hit a dog on my way home just now. I tried to avoid it by hitting on the brake so hard, that i thought i was almost gonna flew off the lane.

Realizing that i shouldn't hit the brake any harder, i decided to just let it hit the poor black dog which appeared from nowhere! bad dog!

:( mau pingsan owh sia. I sobbed all the way home.

Oh. FYI, i made a U-turn just to check on the dog. It's still alive but is limping. I hit it pretty hard, i'm sure of that. :(

Upon reaching home, i checked on the rear which had hit the dog.

MATAII!

The small signal light on the left is like hanging off and to top it off, mimik ba tu bumper!! ASTAGAAA.

Dadi's gonna be sooooo pissed off.

*sighs*

What a way to start my new year maybe it's all because i didn't "buang sial" when midnight struck. Tahun Ox pula tu. Which happened to be "my" year.

Oh 2009. THANK YOU!

*sighs*

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Mr. S.

By the time this current post is published, i am most probably be hangin'out with some good friends counting the hours or minutes before 2009 takes over.

Therefore, sounding cheesy like i always do, i'd really really like to tell him that i'm sorry that never once did i ever mention the three words to him before.


HAVE A HAPPY & BLESSED NEW YEAR PEOPLE!! :)

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