2 Down.

I heart: "Misme misyu misme misyu"
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4 more to go.

But nooo. Not tomorrow. i mean today laa cos it's already 31st oct.

My next war is on the 1st.

Anyhows, today's paper was better than the first one i had the day before *claps*

Jadi since there's a day gap before my next war, sia rest2 jap lu laa. I'll start kumpul my ammo (study) early morning nanti hehe.

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Went out tadi with Jane for dinner. Emy and Syaz didn't follow cos dorang ada paper tomorrow morning at 9am. They were so concerned that Jane still hadn't had her dinner since it was already past 10pm and the bloody foodcourt pun sudah tutup.

So si Emy pun suruh sia bawa si Jane p makan. Got her carkeys and went out for dinner.

Kena sayang juga rupanya ko nih mandak. Haha.

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Lately, i've been listening to few of my buddies' problems. Love related most of the time. It's not that i give good advices i'm sure of that, but maybe i'm good at keeping quiet and just let them talk, let stuffs out of their chest :)

I'm glad and feel honoured that you guys trust me enough to share your problems and personal stuff. I'm truly sorry if i weren't able to provide good advices k. Coz i, myself in confusion as well. It's just that i don't show it and all.

K la. I ran outta material to jot down. Better hit the sack. Mo jadi alarm clock si Emy at 5am lagi nanti.

The thought of someone lingers in my mind.

Please let it go away.

I don't miss the person.

I refuse.

Daa~

.xx.

1 Down.

I heart: "Bytheway...i hope i get d first shot before it hits somebody else"
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Today's paper (Organizational Development & Change) was a OKAY. I guess. MUAHAHA.

Despite not being able to cover all of the relevent syllabus or chapters, i wasn't nervous at all.

Napa tu ah?

Like now.

I should be studying, yet am wasting my time updating blog.

-___-"

Problem nih.

One thing for sure though,

I'm terrified for not being scared at all.

Adoiii. Kenapakaa??

p.s: Bug called while i was in the shower earlier. I wonder why. Thought he'd call back but it's so typical of him not doing so. Wanted to return his calls but terngam2 teda credit pula hahaha. I guess, nda important juga ba tu kan? huhu.

Additional footnote:
Soo unexpectedly Bug called (again) :) Had the longest chat since urmm...ntah bila tuh. Like usual, it has always been fun chatting with urang satu kepala nih LOL.

.xx.

Youthsays.

I Unheart: "Liar"
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See, i'm gonna post a short one here.

Been doing some bloghunting (as what i prefer calling heee~). Somehow, i stopped at couz Dayze's blog.

She has nice posts there. and not mentioning bikin jeles2 pun banyak juga laa haha.

BUT.

Among all, one particular thing she mentioned had caught my attention.

It's regarding youthsays.

I've no friggin' idea whatsoever apaka binatang itu.

Anyways, as i scrolled down, couz Dayze mentioned that all you gotta do is just complete surveys and you'll get paid.

YES. PAID!

If anyone of you are interested, kindly click on the first 'box' on the right (above my 'date/time').

OR.

You could just click the small notification box poppin' in and out on the lower right corner of the screen. Whichever you fancy. :)

.xx.

Skype.

I Heart: "Chill bebeh.tp me tdk sabar mau jumpa u! Hehe."
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These past many days since i couldn't update my blog and IMing with others thru YM and MSN,i've been loitering around most of the time using Skype and occasionally on Meebo laa hehe.

It's true that i've been counting the days before the final exams and all. No doubt about that.

Logged into Skype and start to update my status.

Bila sia tingu status sia, punyala men lama tia kana update. So, i decided to leave the front part and added my very own countdown to end it.

Did the calculation in my head.

Terdiam 3 saat.

(-___-)" <--- ya. ginila muka sia during the 3 seconds.

When the 3 seconds are up, i came to my senses.

WHAT THE FOOK?!

Approximately 2 more weeks (plus few more days but less than 3 weeks for sure hehe) and home i go!

Shyte. That means exams lagi dekat laa?? Nah. Mataii.

Okay you guys this is when i truly need goodluck chants from all of you.

*full of anticipation look*

Thanx in advance!

.xx.

I Gambled & Lost but Still Glad I Did It :)

I heart: “TAKECARE AND ILOVEYOU SO MUCH!! LOL”
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(ATTN: THIS POST WAS MEANT TO BE POSTED ON THE 21.10.08)

Two nights back, I received a text message from Bug.

“Sudenly tiba2 mish ma u ni… Hmph!!!!!!!”

*chuckles* hey I think it’s cute!

Honestly, upon readin’ it, I smiled to myself and got that butterfly effect fluttering in my tummy.

However, I just don’t know which emotion could describe me best; Happy? Or bluffed?

As usual, I brushed it off and pretend that he didn’t mean it (because sy pun tetau whether he really meant it or not, so it’s worth brushing it off hehe).

Last night we had a session of continuous texting Whoa. Amazing! Haha whereby he’d asked me questions and I answered him. I think it’s good to have that conversation because it made me realized or at least, it made feel something.

Something which I should’ve felt long time agoinstead of wasting my/his/eveyone’s time.

Entah kenapa, but I seriously feel like all these while I’ve been holding him back with all the blames and guilt especially after he had read about .the.twisted.parrot.

It’s heartcrushing to acknowledge that. :(

Therefore, as i slumped on the bed before dozing off, I’ve been thinking and it leads to loads more of “maybes”.

From the many, I decided to choose one.

Ahh. Banyak berfikir ni buli tensi oh kan? Hehe. This is soo not me!

Anyways, wish me luck on my finals pipol!:)

One of these Mondays, I decide to let myself go.

By letting you go already.go have fun, be happy & no more holdin’ you back! :)

This is all I (we) need.

Maybe.

"At least we’ve tried. :)"

.xx.

Doin’ Tag (from Mamaii) in Big Apple, Kuantan.

1.The who tag/pass you is?
* Mamaii.

2. Your relationship with him/her is?/
* One of my longtime chatter tambalut.

3. Your 5 impressions of him/her?
1. Suka nyanyi.
2. From Tambunan.
3. Suka aramaitii! Haha.
4. Cutie! Hoho.
5. Gila kali. Haha.

4. The most memorable thing she/he had done for you?
* er. Bein as one of my friend is memorable and good enough for me :)

5. The most memorable thing she/he had said to you?
* hmm..mcm teda ni haha. Sorry maii but I can't recall. =p

6. If she/he become your lover you will?
* (-__-)" tulungla jgn jadi macam si tomkurus numbur dua. Haha.

7. If she/he become your lover, thing she/he has to improve on will be?
*I've no idea. There are loads more yet to know about this person.

8. If she/he become your enemy, you will?
*hopefully ndala kan maii. Palis2.

9. If she/he become your enemy, the reason will be?
* ermm…nda pernah terfikir so idk.

10. The most desired thing you want to do for her/him now is?
* er..oh! I need to email him the picture hahaha. Nanti2 la ah maii. Bida connection ba.

11. Your overall impression of her/him is?
* A good and sporting person. Fun to be with as well.

12. How you think people around you will feel about you?
* Sia pun tetau o. Annoying maybe? Or most say sia gila la. Whatever that means. -__-"

13. The characters you love of yourself are?
* Just bein myself. :)

14. On the contrary, the characters you hate of yourself are?
* baaaanyak. I'm a person covered with flaws bebeh!

15. The most ideal person you want to be is?
* hmm…I need time to answer this.

16. For people that care and like you, say something to them:
* Thanx bunches and loveya guys every single bit!

17. Pass this quiz to 10 persons that you wished to know how they feel about you.
1.Sis Grace 2.Bro Jer 3.Sis Joi 4.Couz Kelor 5.Deasy 6.Teekay 7.Couz Abet 8.Maria 9.Mandak
Lumis 10.Ameh

18. Who is No.6 having relationship with?
* astaga. Sia seriously tetau. Hahaha. Sepa greg?? LOL!

19. Is No.9 a male or female?
* Sudah nama mandak. Female she is.

20. If No.7 and 10 are together, will it be a good thing?
* Ouh no. One reason not to be, dua2 tondu. Haha.

21. What is No.2 studying about?
* Abangku kerja sudah tu.

22. When was the last time you had a chat with No.3?
* Hmm..chat? can't recall. But I've just texted her today la =p

23. What kind of music band does No.8 like?
* I'm GUESSIN' yg slow and mellow ones? xp

24. Does No.1 have any siblings?
* YES! I am one of them.

25. will you woo No.3?
* Err…my sister?

26. How about No.7?
* Err…itu my cousin pula. Haha.

27. Is No.4 single?
* As a matter of fact, YES! Cousin darling ku single still! Hahaa.

28. What is the surname of No.5?
* Err…correct me if I'm wrong k Deasy. Jiliko?

29. What's the hobby of No.10?
* Hmm…readin' I guess. Eh no. DEBATING! She's good in that! Lol.

30. Does No.5 and 9 get along well?
* Deasy and Lumis? Idk if they know each other but I can picture them to get along just fine.

31. Where is No.2 studying at?
* Sudahku bilang. He's working.

32. Talk something casually about No.1?
* She'sthe eldest child of my parents and a sister to her 4 younger siblings. Huahuahua.

33. Have you tried developing feelings for No.6?
* U mean Greg@Teekay? Alala. TK, kita kana fitnah. Haha.

34. Where does No.9 live at?
* Ermm..last time I remembered, di Kepayan. Now, kurang pasti hehe.

35. What colour does No.4 like?
* This is easy. GREEN = alien.

36. Are No.5 and 1 best friends?
* Nope. But they can be get along very well I see. =p

37. Is No.7 the sexiest person in the world?
* Maybe not in the world but she is sexy in her own way alright. =)

38. What is No.6 doing now?
* I've no idea. Haha. He loves blog hoppin' that's for sure. Lol!

 

.xx.

It’s Shockingly Ironic.

I heart: "Sinta, me p keningau uda.u take care ok.jgn lupa mamam.remember dis. Urmine!! =p Mesti u kogutz ni kan? Bah s.tite yo."

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(ATTN: THIS POST WAS MEANT TO BE POSTED YESTERDAY. 09/10/08)

It's a shame when I owe this blog (and a handful of readers) with a new post that I have to ruin the moment by wanting to post yet another mushy one.

It's been a week already not hearing anything from Bug. Wanted to check on him but I guessed he must be busy and all since he too, didn't drop his regular "muks wer r u?" or "heyy. Wat r u duin?"

Iya
Kelor..i know what u gonna say tu. Yalah it's for the best right? Sometimes, we gotta be selfish in love, according to another dear cousin I think you know who you are *winks*

Yesterday I received text messages from someone. To be honest, we're not that good of friends and I barely even know him. But I do know him enough to tell that he's a good person laa since I already know some of his siblings kan.

Anyways, it was sooo sweet of him to share his bundle of joy regarding his new job and all. Apa tidak? Walaupun not that close but still he looked for me first to share the news with :)
Hey thanx! I feel honoured.

The conversation, however, soon took a slow shocking turn. He kinda gave out hints here and there, tryna explain his feelings towards si inden gila
ini lol! His much acclaimed feelings, whether betul ka tidak, itu I don't know, caught me by surprise!

I was flattered but at the same time as what I've mentioned, shocked with his statements (or should I say confession? Hmm..)

I hate to burst his bubbles but I told him politely what I felt, which is otherwise. Sorry kio :(

BUT.

I promise ouh man. I dislike making promises. to go lepak2 with you kalau ada masa k? hehe.

It's nice nonetheless to have that kinda feeling all over again :) You know what I mean right? THAT feeling! LoL.

I want it so bad to hear what my friend had told me. Well, obviously, I got what I wished for. But the thing is, I wanna hear it from the other person.

Now now. Isn't that ironic? *hums on Alanis'- ironic tune*

Ouh well. I guess I just need some more momentum to boost me up :)

 

p.s: Tomorrow morning am leaving for a 3D2N stay at Pantai Sepat, Kuantan. Hope to have a blast with bunch of my batch munkeys. Will update when I got the time k?

 

Another day has passed by.

I am a day closer to home. BUT.

Napa macam sia nervous ni ah? Adeyh.

 

.xx.

Bikin Cover.

I heart: "Huhu.me penat.fuh.jap otw blk kk uda.sacintka."

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Okay, first of all, this post is to cover the previous mushy2 post. I lost it for a while there but i'm all good now :)

Last night i was supposed to hangout with gfnd and the rest, check out MOS (Ministry of Sound) club. It sounds cool and to be honest gurl, i really wanted to go but like what i told you, i just can't. I don't feel right lol!

I know u're so mad at me BUT i also know that you still love your penuh-dengan-alasan bestie ini =p. Ouh! I LOVE YOU TOO gfnd!

Raincheck perhaps? I promise :)
You know i don't like makin' promises right? but when i make one, i try my best to keep it.

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Today couz Kelor and i were so bloody hungry, we decided to pigged out. Jadi untuk menrealkan lagi the word "pigged", instead of masak for ourselves, we ordered our meal via online. Delivery lah katakan.

We got our food from Domino's. YUMMY!

These are basically what we've ordered. A meal for two but fit for 3 or 4 maybe? LOL!


Breadstix, lasagna, spaghetti,2 pizzas & barbecue sauced chicken wings


The many faces of inden enjoying her food LOL!


Kilaaaat bah! haha.


We got haywired when we're waaay stuffed.
Yes. i know i look bloated. i am.
*sighs*

Don't worry Deasy darlin'. Kami sayang you also baa.

*inserts halleluiah song*

=p


Deasy's. =D

Did i mention that we paid an exact amount of RM61.80 for the above?

(-____-)"

But twas worth it :)

I think that's all for now. I wanted to share more photos of us during our day-out with some other cousins the other day but panat sudah sia ni. Maybe next time?

Or..

Click here to have a quick review of it, credit to couz Kelor. =p

p.s: I'm goin' back Pahang tomorrow. I don't think i'll have ample of time to be able to update my blog that often anymore. kthxbye!

psstt~ Deasy. Tx for the tapao-ed dinner tadi ah. Sungguh lazat!

.xx.

Untitled.

He heart: "Sasayka Tagi."
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S.O.S-ing to get over this already.

Sa tid suk bil sa ras mac in. Sa tid suk bil Bug crossed my mind. Coz' it made me smile but it tires me just tryna ignore it. Sa tid suk keep on anticipating the name "** bug" to appear on my cell screen. :(

I loathe it even more when i tried to convince myself something that contradicts the fact.

Bug loves to come and go. I feel otherwise.

As much as i hate to admit,

"samiska."

.xx.

5am.

I heart: "Mulau.iloveyoulikecrazy."
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To whom it may concern.

HAPPY BORNDAY! :)

I didn't text you at 12am.
Coz' i bet your line must be busy around that time.
So i hate to give you another hard time. LOL!

Besides..
It wasn't even 5am.

Instead, i save this as draft at 12:02am.
Set it to be published 5 hours later :)

Once again,

HAPPY 20-ish BORNDAY WINDBOI.

Have a blast and blessed one. My prayers for you in achieving all that you've been dreamin' of.
yes. i know sia baik hati. lol.

<3,
gebugirl (whatever that stands for).

You actually thought i forgot?

.xx.

To The First Man In My Life.

I remember this date since always.

It reminds me of you and everything that you've given me (us).

I texted you right after it strikes 12am.

No, i didn't complaint.

I took out my stationery to make something for you.

Again, i didn't complaint.

Like a silly girl, i put on a light shade of pink lipstick coz' i don't have red ones at 2am.

Silly, yet i didn't complaint.

Trying hard not to fall asleep tho' my eyes are betraying me just to write what i wanna say to you.

Please don't feel bad. I am not complaning :)

Compared to what i have done/given you with what you've done/given me (us) throughout the years, how can i ever complaint?

With the stationery and smeared light shade of glittered pink lipstick on my lips, i've made this especially for you.





Yes, Dadi. I LOVE YOU so much! :)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DADDY DEARIE.

I pray for you always and wishing you greaaatt life ahead filled with blessings and surrounded by people you love and who love you :)


I can never thank you enough.


To the first man in my life.


.xx.