Beyond Words.

I'm aware that feelings can be easily expressed by words or through songs.

[BUT].

I've always believed that action speaks louder than words.

Maybe how i behave has been influenced by what i believed in.

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Folded hearts.

Yes, the RM1 folded hearts.

I meant them. Guessed he never knew.

.xx.

Impromptu Getaway.

Just the previous night, gfnd Jane and i were chatting in MSN when suddenly i popped the question:

"So, tomorrow jadi la u pi pulau? with whom?"

She replied, "Jojo nda pi, Surren also cannot go, Dennis went for his divings. But i'm still going. ALONE."

Reading the last word, i went twilight for a second. Realizing how much she wanted to go to the island and after turning her down baaaanyak kali hehehe i suddenly bolted in to finally agreeing to go.

I know you takajut tu kan Jane? LOL.

So that was it. We planned the unplanned during wee hours :) Yang paaaling best, the day we were supposed to set-off to Mamutik, we managed to get Jasony, Ali & Kajun to butt in at the last minute sampai ada juga tahap memaksa la hahaha.

The 5 of us went to Mamutik island and chill for a bit. Trus di sana, we bumped onto Jude Jr. and upon our arrival at the J.Point jetty, i saw one familiar face as well but actually his tee caught my attention first baru urg dia coz tee BBKK dia tu sama with my BBKK woven bag i was carrying around LOL. Takajut jugala sia but it's cool. Heh.

After the island, we decided to head to Waterfront to grab something to eat. Pastu balik rumah, shower and all, direct pi tingu wayang. Panaaaatt ehh! And if it wasn't because i need to get up early for work tomorrow, i would've joined them to Upperstar to hangout (ketara sangat gansau oo kan? LMAO.)

K laa. IF i were able to update with photos (which i will try because seriously, it depends on my mood to do so heee~), i will okay?

Til then. Niteynytes!

Couple of days til new year.

.xx.

2 movies & A Pair of Oversized Roxy Flipflops.

I was supposed to follow sis Karen to hangout somewhere just now. I've had some other invitations by some friends as well.

At first, i was in dilemma. To whom should i go with? Last punya last, i end up not going with any of them LOL.

Truth is, being the lazybum as i already am, i wasn't in the mood to go out BUT somehow i really feel like giving myself a break. At least, doing something i loike once in a while.

Again, i opted for movie marathon :)

I texted Dadi yang pada ketika itu berada next door and ask for his permission to borrow his truck. Once he gave me the greenlight, i immediately vroom2 to CP as i was already late yes i have probs with time management hehe.

Watched George Romero's Diary of The Dead and also KM 31.

The verdict: Both pun sama ja. Ok2 only laarr. Nothing to be "awed" about although KM31 did freaked me out a bit sampai risau sia mau drive balik saturang hehe. But i'm cool. =p

O ya. Since my cousin lost her sandals during open house the other day, i lend her mine instead. I didn't feel like wearing shoes/sneakers for movie just now so i borrowed sis Karen's roxy flipflops yang obviously oversized.

Payah rupanya mau berjalan pakai oversized sepatu.

-___-"

(Punya ketara sia ketandusan idea mau berblogging ni. Alalala.)

Let's see tomorrow. I might go for movie marathon again xD

p.s: I'm excited for new year to come. yeay! But..*sighs* it pulls me down a weebit also.

p.p.s: 3 more days to new year. 3 more days to close the old book and start a brand new one.

3 more days to excuse myself for doing what i shouldn't be doing.

Just 3 more days to tell Mr. S. things i've been wanting to tell him long ago.

.xx.

Skip This.

The more i ignore, the more i searched/thought of Mr. S.

Imishim & hatingit at once.

BLISSFUL CHRISTMAS & A VERY HAPPY NEW YEAR 2009 PIPOL!

p.s: 7 days til '09.

:(

.xx.

The Muse, Props & i n d e n

I just love it whenever ideas would popped in my head.

But sia tia suka kalau it happens as i'm just about to doze-off WHICH ironically, always always! happen.

-____-"

Anyways, been wanting to post these pics tapi maaalas ja. I did them a couple of days ago tho'.

Kalau bida, tulungla ketawa banyak2 k xD

Before that, these are the tools bein used:


Duck magnet, mechanical pencil, mumdad's standard digicam and my name (bar code-like)

And i utilized the props into these:




i fancy this one very much :)

Okaaayy. You people can laugh your arses off now. LOL.


p.s: I had a good time last night. Tho' twas short, i am glad :) Thank you.

To whom it may concern.

.xx.

Edit.Editing.Edited.

I can't believe i just spent couple of hours just for this! just to get my mind off of something


I'm loikeing it tho' :) uinaa macam cover buku low-budget ging! lmao.

p.s: Gettin' new shoes ala2 sneakers tomorrow. Hopefully masih ada. Hey sepatu, see you toms! xp

imishhim[but]hedoesntknownorcared
:(

.xx.

Dishwalla.

Listening to their song 'Angels or Devils' over and over again, suddenly made me sappy.

I loathe it so much when my mind is preoccupied with thoughts of something which i do not wish to think about.

As new year's approaching, i grew more and more confused, sad and excited all at once.

Sad coz i know i need to let go of something.

Something which if possible, i wouldn't wanna let go of :(

Oh Dishwalla. I curse thee for makin' me feel this way(all over again).

She opted for movie marathon to loosen her pathetic self.

Hopefully it works.

.xx.

Sad but I'm A'ight :)

I've started my internship in one of the companies around kk since yesterday.

Today was my second day, and so far all is good laa.

First day was always a nightmare but lepas tu okay sudah laa. Enjin sudah panas trus buli kamcing sudah sama sumua regardless of the huge age gap :)

The best thing is, department sia sangat best! sporting sumuaaa. Huhuhuhu.

*clears throat*

I happen to be the youngest there. hehehehe.

Now i gotta start thinking about updating my log book and start doing my report otherwise pandai lagi si shahrul suhaimi (lecturer) call and kasi main2 lagi di telefon. Astagaaaaa.

Lately i've been tired although masih lagi awal. Jadi, i better get some rest now k.

Updates soon! :)

As she was browsing fs, she found out something.
Yes, she feels like breaking down but she'll take it to her advantage.
An advantage for her new year's resolution.

...which is less than a month time.

.xx.

Thank you, Sharon.

...for bein' a dumbas*

I got the result for final examination.

It doesn't look good..

AT ALL!

Kalau ikutkan hati, maaaaaaauuuuuu ja sia memaki sini.

But i know it won't do any good.

I'm off now.

PPPPFFFFFTTTTTT~!!!!!!

p.s: blogging will be put into halt at the moment. I need to direct my kekecewaan to somewhere/someone/something.

DAMN IT!!

.xx.

Tagged: 6 Quirks.

This is the continuation of a long delayed tag request. But this time it's from Ameh.

Sia buat sekarang k? uina macam deja vu ja ayat tuh.

Sebelum tu, the rules are:

1. Link the person who tagged you.
2. Post the rules on your blog.
3. List 6 unspectacular quirks you have.
4. Tag another 6 bloggers by linking them.
5. Leave a comment on each taggee's blog to let them know they've been tagged.

Sia cubalah kio. Here goes...

#1. I burp! : Duuulu kan, i usually tutup mulut sia whenever i burp or at least tried to minimize the belching sound. But recently i've been actin' bit obnoxious by belching freely despite knowing that there are people (or strangers) around. Thanx to Syaz yang ajar sia lah tu. LOL.

Ya. Sia kurang manners. Sorry sorry.

#2. I steal! : This is applied whenever there is food served. I tend to automatically "steal" some food from my fnf's plate.

BUT.

This will only happen to those i am very much comfortable with.

#3. I eat pickles/vege separately. : Refers when i am having burger(s) applied to apa2 jenis burger pun. I tend to eat the pickles or vege (i.e slices of tomatoes) first before munching the rest of the burger.

Ntah kenapa. Sia pun tetau. -___-"

#4. I cover my teddy bear/extrapillow/bolster with blankie. : Ni laaaagi sia tia faham. I tend to share my blanket with "them". Cos' i always seem to think that they'll get cold at night. Bikin kasian baa.

Tried to abandone this habit but it is sooooo hard!

#5. I don't comb my hair. : UNLESS it's really necessaryor kalau p saloon la. I don't even own a comb since...erm...i was 12?

WOW. sia pun baru perasan oo.

So, that explains why my hair is always in a serabai manner. LOL.

#6. I read the dictionary. : ...especially when i'm bored or feel like readin' something and there ain't any other interesting books around. Siok baa. Banyak new vocabs buli jumpa tu. xD

I've decided to ignore rule no.4&5

I tag....

EVERYONE!

.xx.

Tagged.

Errmm. I got tagged by sis Ojoy since ages ago. Sekarang sia buat k.

Besides, this one's kinda fun! pasal pindik sija gia haha.

Before that, these are the rules to be applied:

1. Take a recent picture of yourself right now.
2. Don't change your clothes or fix your hair..just snap one!
3. Post the picture WITHOUT editing well maybe resizing is permissible
4. Post these instructions with your picture.
5. Tag 10 people to do this.

iyaa. muka boring. sia tau. shuushh!

And now i tag...

1. Couz kelor
2. Cynth
   
3. Maria
4. Mamaii
5. Balle
6. Deasy
7. Eleanor
8. Ameh
9. Girllyen
10. Prish

.xx.

Nov The 22nd.

I know this might sound cliche but, i will update soon not that it matters if i don't hehe with the materials that i have in mind now.

I planned on doin' some tag questions, updating a post regarding a good friend's engagement day am so happy for you ila! *hugs* and get acquainted with her tunang yang buli masuk sorita and satu kapla sama kami. APPROVED!, bumped into some of high school mates, ran into a person (which i've mentioned previously in one of my posts) and got "proposed" (alaaa..jangan kaget baa. Bukan minta kana kahwin punya proposal. LOL), contacted well, sort of two of my old buddies from high school etc.

Oo and btw, si tagi balik sudaaa. Weeee~ now i can put my bugging mode back on!
*smirks evilish-ly*

Man. A lot had happened within ONE day.

Will go on details soon ain't promising anything tho' ehehhe.

.xx.

I'm In Love!

I heart: "Lyt!!!"
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...with two things at the moment. well actually ada tiga but let's not talk about the third.

Firstly, thanx to Alv, i've got my hands on the polo lookalike BBKK tee which i heart so much :)


(The tee dengan tuannya yang bermata sepet. lol.)

wehh alv, jgn lupa sound2 sia when the next girlie tee is out lagi k *chuckles*

Secondly, currently i'm sooo addicted with Stefanie Heinzmann's - My Man Is A Mean Man.

Try listening to it in the "ipod". I've uploaded it there :)

p.s: I've reached kk few days back. Was able to go makan with Tagi for a bit and did a lil bit of catchin' ups. Twas all fun and good. Makasih for the supper, company and supiring. Saaaaayang anda!

.xx.

6 Down: Tomorrow's Monday.

I heart: ".ooxxoxoxxxoo."

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Exams are finally over since last friday.

I'm all excited and sad at the same time tho'. It kinda suck that many of my closest friends couldn't make it to the airport to send me off.

But it's ok. I understand. After all, it is graduation night. It only happens once :)

And by the way, i am really sorry for not being able to attend it k, Ims. Lamaaa uda kita janji mo jadi partners tu right? *sighs*

What a bummer! and i will even have to missed watching you perform on that night. Haiyaaa. Tepala, you know i got your back :)

K laa. Better start re-packing my stuff.

Tomorrow's Monday already.

.xx.

5 Down.

I heart: "Lveu hun"
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Am still sick.

Finally, after FAILING to prove to everyone that i have strong antibody went to get some prescriptions from one of the clinics here.

The result, i have to bear with four kinds of prescriptions. Yang paaaaaling "best" kan, bikin ngantuk semua!

I think i know now how it feels like to get high on drugs.

K laa, mo layan tidur balik. The drugs have kicked in again.

.xx.

4 Down.

I heart: "Kakaka.wui dorang men lagu kita. me mesh u like gilaaaa!"

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Thankfully, 4 down and 2 more to go which is on the 5th and 7th respectively. Jadi ada time buli rest. Hancurness muka sia. *sighs*

Right after today's paper, i was feeling bit uneasy/uncomfortable. I suddenly have muscle pain, my torso is aching and feel like my head is gonna burst everytime i coughed.

Went for a quick nap hoping to feel much better once i'm up, to no avail.

Once again, hoping to feel better, i went off for a 25mins jog.

Sungguh mengecewakan, i didn't sweat alot like how i usually do. something isn't right here.

Last2 balik rumah and found out rupanya sia sakit. Feverish.

And i still have 2 more papers to go.

Dang.

"Teeeennggss pwaaaannnn"

Hmmm.

What were you thinking inden?!

Nothing's changed. Everything's same ol' same ol'.

Bear that in mind!

.xx.

3 Down.

I heart: "Wer r u?"

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Yes people.

3 more to go. yippie!

Today's paper was..urmm..let's just say that it exceeded my expectations, in a good way :)

I expected myself to perform poorly on this one. =p

Anyhows, am just so friggin' glad that half of 'em are over!!

=D

Okaylaa. Updates later.

Off to mamam with some mates now.

Cheers~!

.xx.

2 Down.

I heart: "Misme misyu misme misyu"
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4 more to go.

But nooo. Not tomorrow. i mean today laa cos it's already 31st oct.

My next war is on the 1st.

Anyhows, today's paper was better than the first one i had the day before *claps*

Jadi since there's a day gap before my next war, sia rest2 jap lu laa. I'll start kumpul my ammo (study) early morning nanti hehe.

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Went out tadi with Jane for dinner. Emy and Syaz didn't follow cos dorang ada paper tomorrow morning at 9am. They were so concerned that Jane still hadn't had her dinner since it was already past 10pm and the bloody foodcourt pun sudah tutup.

So si Emy pun suruh sia bawa si Jane p makan. Got her carkeys and went out for dinner.

Kena sayang juga rupanya ko nih mandak. Haha.

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Lately, i've been listening to few of my buddies' problems. Love related most of the time. It's not that i give good advices i'm sure of that, but maybe i'm good at keeping quiet and just let them talk, let stuffs out of their chest :)

I'm glad and feel honoured that you guys trust me enough to share your problems and personal stuff. I'm truly sorry if i weren't able to provide good advices k. Coz i, myself in confusion as well. It's just that i don't show it and all.

K la. I ran outta material to jot down. Better hit the sack. Mo jadi alarm clock si Emy at 5am lagi nanti.

The thought of someone lingers in my mind.

Please let it go away.

I don't miss the person.

I refuse.

Daa~

.xx.

1 Down.

I heart: "Bytheway...i hope i get d first shot before it hits somebody else"
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Today's paper (Organizational Development & Change) was a OKAY. I guess. MUAHAHA.

Despite not being able to cover all of the relevent syllabus or chapters, i wasn't nervous at all.

Napa tu ah?

Like now.

I should be studying, yet am wasting my time updating blog.

-___-"

Problem nih.

One thing for sure though,

I'm terrified for not being scared at all.

Adoiii. Kenapakaa??

p.s: Bug called while i was in the shower earlier. I wonder why. Thought he'd call back but it's so typical of him not doing so. Wanted to return his calls but terngam2 teda credit pula hahaha. I guess, nda important juga ba tu kan? huhu.

Additional footnote:
Soo unexpectedly Bug called (again) :) Had the longest chat since urmm...ntah bila tuh. Like usual, it has always been fun chatting with urang satu kepala nih LOL.

.xx.

Youthsays.

I Unheart: "Liar"
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See, i'm gonna post a short one here.

Been doing some bloghunting (as what i prefer calling heee~). Somehow, i stopped at couz Dayze's blog.

She has nice posts there. and not mentioning bikin jeles2 pun banyak juga laa haha.

BUT.

Among all, one particular thing she mentioned had caught my attention.

It's regarding youthsays.

I've no friggin' idea whatsoever apaka binatang itu.

Anyways, as i scrolled down, couz Dayze mentioned that all you gotta do is just complete surveys and you'll get paid.

YES. PAID!

If anyone of you are interested, kindly click on the first 'box' on the right (above my 'date/time').

OR.

You could just click the small notification box poppin' in and out on the lower right corner of the screen. Whichever you fancy. :)

.xx.

Skype.

I Heart: "Chill bebeh.tp me tdk sabar mau jumpa u! Hehe."
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These past many days since i couldn't update my blog and IMing with others thru YM and MSN,i've been loitering around most of the time using Skype and occasionally on Meebo laa hehe.

It's true that i've been counting the days before the final exams and all. No doubt about that.

Logged into Skype and start to update my status.

Bila sia tingu status sia, punyala men lama tia kana update. So, i decided to leave the front part and added my very own countdown to end it.

Did the calculation in my head.

Terdiam 3 saat.

(-___-)" <--- ya. ginila muka sia during the 3 seconds.

When the 3 seconds are up, i came to my senses.

WHAT THE FOOK?!

Approximately 2 more weeks (plus few more days but less than 3 weeks for sure hehe) and home i go!

Shyte. That means exams lagi dekat laa?? Nah. Mataii.

Okay you guys this is when i truly need goodluck chants from all of you.

*full of anticipation look*

Thanx in advance!

.xx.

I Gambled & Lost but Still Glad I Did It :)

I heart: “TAKECARE AND ILOVEYOU SO MUCH!! LOL”
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(ATTN: THIS POST WAS MEANT TO BE POSTED ON THE 21.10.08)

Two nights back, I received a text message from Bug.

“Sudenly tiba2 mish ma u ni… Hmph!!!!!!!”

*chuckles* hey I think it’s cute!

Honestly, upon readin’ it, I smiled to myself and got that butterfly effect fluttering in my tummy.

However, I just don’t know which emotion could describe me best; Happy? Or bluffed?

As usual, I brushed it off and pretend that he didn’t mean it (because sy pun tetau whether he really meant it or not, so it’s worth brushing it off hehe).

Last night we had a session of continuous texting Whoa. Amazing! Haha whereby he’d asked me questions and I answered him. I think it’s good to have that conversation because it made me realized or at least, it made feel something.

Something which I should’ve felt long time agoinstead of wasting my/his/eveyone’s time.

Entah kenapa, but I seriously feel like all these while I’ve been holding him back with all the blames and guilt especially after he had read about .the.twisted.parrot.

It’s heartcrushing to acknowledge that. :(

Therefore, as i slumped on the bed before dozing off, I’ve been thinking and it leads to loads more of “maybes”.

From the many, I decided to choose one.

Ahh. Banyak berfikir ni buli tensi oh kan? Hehe. This is soo not me!

Anyways, wish me luck on my finals pipol!:)

One of these Mondays, I decide to let myself go.

By letting you go already.go have fun, be happy & no more holdin’ you back! :)

This is all I (we) need.

Maybe.

"At least we’ve tried. :)"

.xx.

Doin’ Tag (from Mamaii) in Big Apple, Kuantan.

1.The who tag/pass you is?
* Mamaii.

2. Your relationship with him/her is?/
* One of my longtime chatter tambalut.

3. Your 5 impressions of him/her?
1. Suka nyanyi.
2. From Tambunan.
3. Suka aramaitii! Haha.
4. Cutie! Hoho.
5. Gila kali. Haha.

4. The most memorable thing she/he had done for you?
* er. Bein as one of my friend is memorable and good enough for me :)

5. The most memorable thing she/he had said to you?
* hmm..mcm teda ni haha. Sorry maii but I can't recall. =p

6. If she/he become your lover you will?
* (-__-)" tulungla jgn jadi macam si tomkurus numbur dua. Haha.

7. If she/he become your lover, thing she/he has to improve on will be?
*I've no idea. There are loads more yet to know about this person.

8. If she/he become your enemy, you will?
*hopefully ndala kan maii. Palis2.

9. If she/he become your enemy, the reason will be?
* ermm…nda pernah terfikir so idk.

10. The most desired thing you want to do for her/him now is?
* er..oh! I need to email him the picture hahaha. Nanti2 la ah maii. Bida connection ba.

11. Your overall impression of her/him is?
* A good and sporting person. Fun to be with as well.

12. How you think people around you will feel about you?
* Sia pun tetau o. Annoying maybe? Or most say sia gila la. Whatever that means. -__-"

13. The characters you love of yourself are?
* Just bein myself. :)

14. On the contrary, the characters you hate of yourself are?
* baaaanyak. I'm a person covered with flaws bebeh!

15. The most ideal person you want to be is?
* hmm…I need time to answer this.

16. For people that care and like you, say something to them:
* Thanx bunches and loveya guys every single bit!

17. Pass this quiz to 10 persons that you wished to know how they feel about you.
1.Sis Grace 2.Bro Jer 3.Sis Joi 4.Couz Kelor 5.Deasy 6.Teekay 7.Couz Abet 8.Maria 9.Mandak
Lumis 10.Ameh

18. Who is No.6 having relationship with?
* astaga. Sia seriously tetau. Hahaha. Sepa greg?? LOL!

19. Is No.9 a male or female?
* Sudah nama mandak. Female she is.

20. If No.7 and 10 are together, will it be a good thing?
* Ouh no. One reason not to be, dua2 tondu. Haha.

21. What is No.2 studying about?
* Abangku kerja sudah tu.

22. When was the last time you had a chat with No.3?
* Hmm..chat? can't recall. But I've just texted her today la =p

23. What kind of music band does No.8 like?
* I'm GUESSIN' yg slow and mellow ones? xp

24. Does No.1 have any siblings?
* YES! I am one of them.

25. will you woo No.3?
* Err…my sister?

26. How about No.7?
* Err…itu my cousin pula. Haha.

27. Is No.4 single?
* As a matter of fact, YES! Cousin darling ku single still! Hahaa.

28. What is the surname of No.5?
* Err…correct me if I'm wrong k Deasy. Jiliko?

29. What's the hobby of No.10?
* Hmm…readin' I guess. Eh no. DEBATING! She's good in that! Lol.

30. Does No.5 and 9 get along well?
* Deasy and Lumis? Idk if they know each other but I can picture them to get along just fine.

31. Where is No.2 studying at?
* Sudahku bilang. He's working.

32. Talk something casually about No.1?
* She'sthe eldest child of my parents and a sister to her 4 younger siblings. Huahuahua.

33. Have you tried developing feelings for No.6?
* U mean Greg@Teekay? Alala. TK, kita kana fitnah. Haha.

34. Where does No.9 live at?
* Ermm..last time I remembered, di Kepayan. Now, kurang pasti hehe.

35. What colour does No.4 like?
* This is easy. GREEN = alien.

36. Are No.5 and 1 best friends?
* Nope. But they can be get along very well I see. =p

37. Is No.7 the sexiest person in the world?
* Maybe not in the world but she is sexy in her own way alright. =)

38. What is No.6 doing now?
* I've no idea. Haha. He loves blog hoppin' that's for sure. Lol!

 

.xx.

It’s Shockingly Ironic.

I heart: "Sinta, me p keningau uda.u take care ok.jgn lupa mamam.remember dis. Urmine!! =p Mesti u kogutz ni kan? Bah s.tite yo."

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(ATTN: THIS POST WAS MEANT TO BE POSTED YESTERDAY. 09/10/08)

It's a shame when I owe this blog (and a handful of readers) with a new post that I have to ruin the moment by wanting to post yet another mushy one.

It's been a week already not hearing anything from Bug. Wanted to check on him but I guessed he must be busy and all since he too, didn't drop his regular "muks wer r u?" or "heyy. Wat r u duin?"

Iya
Kelor..i know what u gonna say tu. Yalah it's for the best right? Sometimes, we gotta be selfish in love, according to another dear cousin I think you know who you are *winks*

Yesterday I received text messages from someone. To be honest, we're not that good of friends and I barely even know him. But I do know him enough to tell that he's a good person laa since I already know some of his siblings kan.

Anyways, it was sooo sweet of him to share his bundle of joy regarding his new job and all. Apa tidak? Walaupun not that close but still he looked for me first to share the news with :)
Hey thanx! I feel honoured.

The conversation, however, soon took a slow shocking turn. He kinda gave out hints here and there, tryna explain his feelings towards si inden gila
ini lol! His much acclaimed feelings, whether betul ka tidak, itu I don't know, caught me by surprise!

I was flattered but at the same time as what I've mentioned, shocked with his statements (or should I say confession? Hmm..)

I hate to burst his bubbles but I told him politely what I felt, which is otherwise. Sorry kio :(

BUT.

I promise ouh man. I dislike making promises. to go lepak2 with you kalau ada masa k? hehe.

It's nice nonetheless to have that kinda feeling all over again :) You know what I mean right? THAT feeling! LoL.

I want it so bad to hear what my friend had told me. Well, obviously, I got what I wished for. But the thing is, I wanna hear it from the other person.

Now now. Isn't that ironic? *hums on Alanis'- ironic tune*

Ouh well. I guess I just need some more momentum to boost me up :)

 

p.s: Tomorrow morning am leaving for a 3D2N stay at Pantai Sepat, Kuantan. Hope to have a blast with bunch of my batch munkeys. Will update when I got the time k?

 

Another day has passed by.

I am a day closer to home. BUT.

Napa macam sia nervous ni ah? Adeyh.

 

.xx.

Bikin Cover.

I heart: "Huhu.me penat.fuh.jap otw blk kk uda.sacintka."

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Okay, first of all, this post is to cover the previous mushy2 post. I lost it for a while there but i'm all good now :)

Last night i was supposed to hangout with gfnd and the rest, check out MOS (Ministry of Sound) club. It sounds cool and to be honest gurl, i really wanted to go but like what i told you, i just can't. I don't feel right lol!

I know u're so mad at me BUT i also know that you still love your penuh-dengan-alasan bestie ini =p. Ouh! I LOVE YOU TOO gfnd!

Raincheck perhaps? I promise :)
You know i don't like makin' promises right? but when i make one, i try my best to keep it.

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Today couz Kelor and i were so bloody hungry, we decided to pigged out. Jadi untuk menrealkan lagi the word "pigged", instead of masak for ourselves, we ordered our meal via online. Delivery lah katakan.

We got our food from Domino's. YUMMY!

These are basically what we've ordered. A meal for two but fit for 3 or 4 maybe? LOL!


Breadstix, lasagna, spaghetti,2 pizzas & barbecue sauced chicken wings


The many faces of inden enjoying her food LOL!


Kilaaaat bah! haha.


We got haywired when we're waaay stuffed.
Yes. i know i look bloated. i am.
*sighs*

Don't worry Deasy darlin'. Kami sayang you also baa.

*inserts halleluiah song*

=p


Deasy's. =D

Did i mention that we paid an exact amount of RM61.80 for the above?

(-____-)"

But twas worth it :)

I think that's all for now. I wanted to share more photos of us during our day-out with some other cousins the other day but panat sudah sia ni. Maybe next time?

Or..

Click here to have a quick review of it, credit to couz Kelor. =p

p.s: I'm goin' back Pahang tomorrow. I don't think i'll have ample of time to be able to update my blog that often anymore. kthxbye!

psstt~ Deasy. Tx for the tapao-ed dinner tadi ah. Sungguh lazat!

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Untitled.

He heart: "Sasayka Tagi."
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S.O.S-ing to get over this already.

Sa tid suk bil sa ras mac in. Sa tid suk bil Bug crossed my mind. Coz' it made me smile but it tires me just tryna ignore it. Sa tid suk keep on anticipating the name "** bug" to appear on my cell screen. :(

I loathe it even more when i tried to convince myself something that contradicts the fact.

Bug loves to come and go. I feel otherwise.

As much as i hate to admit,

"samiska."

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5am.

I heart: "Mulau.iloveyoulikecrazy."
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To whom it may concern.

HAPPY BORNDAY! :)

I didn't text you at 12am.
Coz' i bet your line must be busy around that time.
So i hate to give you another hard time. LOL!

Besides..
It wasn't even 5am.

Instead, i save this as draft at 12:02am.
Set it to be published 5 hours later :)

Once again,

HAPPY 20-ish BORNDAY WINDBOI.

Have a blast and blessed one. My prayers for you in achieving all that you've been dreamin' of.
yes. i know sia baik hati. lol.

<3,
gebugirl (whatever that stands for).

You actually thought i forgot?

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To The First Man In My Life.

I remember this date since always.

It reminds me of you and everything that you've given me (us).

I texted you right after it strikes 12am.

No, i didn't complaint.

I took out my stationery to make something for you.

Again, i didn't complaint.

Like a silly girl, i put on a light shade of pink lipstick coz' i don't have red ones at 2am.

Silly, yet i didn't complaint.

Trying hard not to fall asleep tho' my eyes are betraying me just to write what i wanna say to you.

Please don't feel bad. I am not complaning :)

Compared to what i have done/given you with what you've done/given me (us) throughout the years, how can i ever complaint?

With the stationery and smeared light shade of glittered pink lipstick on my lips, i've made this especially for you.





Yes, Dadi. I LOVE YOU so much! :)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DADDY DEARIE.

I pray for you always and wishing you greaaatt life ahead filled with blessings and surrounded by people you love and who love you :)


I can never thank you enough.


To the first man in my life.


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It’s not the tees. It’s me.

I heart: "Sharon imisusomuch."

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Today's the last day of Sept huh?

Tomorrow is Dad's bornday. Love you
Dadi. :)

Raya 2008 falls tomorrow too.

How time flies.

Each passing day indicates that I am a step closer to home.

I am thrilled yet..afraid.

I wonder why.

I loathe it so much when I go all mellow again. Coz' when that happens, I tend to write sappy stories.

Like now.

Recently, I've been happy. Not that I wasn't happy before but, you know, just happier I guess? Or was I feelin' glad? Content?

I've always had tough times expressing what I truly feel towards a person. To have experience what I've experienced recently isn't helping at all. Well maybe it did. It helped me to build even thicker fortress. It's so thick, I feel like I am incarcerated by it.

A good buddy asked me recently.

"You really thought it's because of those shirts?"

I said yes. Though deep inside, my instinct tells me that it isn't. Or maybe that's what I wanted to believe.

But, I guess I've managed to condition myself not to be fooled twice. I had my defense up to protect myself this time. It was hard for you to gain my trust since the get-go but I guess it's even harder for me to trust or to even believe words now. Though I really really wanted to, you just have no idea. I guess you never did.

We're actually in the same boat, Bug.

You're so good when it comes to rationalizing situations. So, think for once. Why do you think i said what I've said? Why am I acting this way?

Have any of you ever been sky-high just to find yourself rocketed down and hit the ground? I did that to a person (it was never planned nor was it because of a third party) and I know it sucked coz' I got my fair share on it as well =p

As soon as you fell onto the ground, the wisest thing to do is to be proactive the next time around.

That's exactly what I am doin' Bug. You should've known better, riiiigggght? Xp

Pendek kata, I am just a silly girl who is trying to protect herself from getting' hurt, TWICE :)

Look, I apologize if I've ever disappoint or made you go berserk at times k. I did those with good reasons bukan saja ja suka2 mau buat.

I don't know whether you're gonna buy whatever shyte I write here coz' as you always like to put it, I am the ultimate LIAR, remember?

Well at least I've tried explaining.

Maybe.

Just maybe, this is why I am scared.

I just hate this feeling.

 

I am feeling down and sappy.

You get what that means?

I guess you don't.

Like always.

 

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Cousins Day Out.

I heart: "Uiks shenis ah? hmm remember dear. U r MINE! Jaga...hehehe"

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*taps keyboard*

Cousin Kelor and i have just reached home (Shah Alam) somewhere around 2pm today. We've spent a couple of days at cousin Una's just for fun. While we were there, there weren't many things we managed to do (except for balik2 pi makan laa. Thanx Pang Ko! =p )

Below are some pics taken during our short stay in Puchong.


First night: On our way to grab something to eat. (i loike this pic!)


On our way back home from dinner (supper)

Couz Abet lemme drove the unfamiliar route back home! =p

The very next day was a Sunday. So all of us decided to go out to jalan2 cari makan. Then we went to Elianto warehouse sale xD. We took pics all the way to our destinations.

Pictures like these:

Left: Couz Kelor with baby Kaylyn on lap. Right: Couz Abet.

Yes. I know i look uber chubby there. That's because i am. *sighs*


Ako with baby Xiao Hui staring curiosly at me =/

We (the cousins) shopped like nobody's business at Elianto. But paling terer si Una jugalaa. Men banyak! LOL! We spent approx. RM200 at Elianto's. Ndala saturang baa. I mean if we total up altogether.

These are basically the stuffs we've purchased.

Girls' stuff.

What's the use of makeups if you don't put them on right? Sooo, the cousins have decided to play doll for a bit.

*chuckles*

Right after that, we did just what the oh-so-typical girl love to do. CAMWHORING! haha.

Ouh. Did i mention that, twas the longest camwhoring session i've had in my life so far! Sampai ngantuk baa. LOL! To upload just A FEW of them would be a wise thing to do. *sweats*

Muntah darah karang kamurang. Haha.

Here goes.





I guess that's all for now. Am so bloody fed-up uploading these pics.

*scratches head*



p.s: Thanx for the sunnies Bet. I'm lovin' it!

*hugs*


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I’m all psyched up and whoa-ed!

I heart: "U know wat? I was expecting fer yer msg dr td.hmmm.klah. lowbat ni. Me maybe blk umah jam 3 or 4 gitu. Me nda curang jg. Me oledi got u kan. Jajal one."

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I have posted one earlier on.

So, I'm just gonna post another one just for fun. Ok?

Heck.

This is my blog anyways. I can screw with it anytime I want.

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As mentioned, I'm anticipating a lot of stuffs nowadays. I get all psyched up just by the thought of graduating within few more months, our batch trip to one of the beaches, cousin day-out tomorrow, outing with sister Grace on Tuesday and lastly, I can't wait to get my hands on my…

HUGO BOSS XX PERFUME!

*does the hula dance*

Now that I've already got myself that, I'll find a way to get Victoria Secret Dream Angel Divine Eau De Parfume (I heartheartheart the smell!) but I'm not in a hurry la. I'll ask Megan to get it for me in the States.

*smiles wickedly*

HOLD ON.

I think I also need to get a pair of footwear (it can range from shoes/flipflops/heels/sandals etc. It depends heavily on the design) for an everyday wear to class (especially supaya tia kena 'tendang' keluar dari library. I know. WTF! right?)

Hangkang sudah bah the one sia slalu pakai. Hehe.

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Kepada abangku, Jerry, you managed to find me (though I know it's really not that hard at all considering we're currently living in the IT era where everythingwell almost is just clicks away). Again, you found me.

Pppffttt~!

Anyways, WELCOME
jugalaa kasi kau. LOL! Ndaba. You're always welcome here *winks*

 

p.s: Abang, I've read your blog. What's with the whole "model" thingy? Muahahaha.

 

Hey cupid. Since my bro has already found out about our lil' secret talk, tulung cari his tulang rusuk also ok.

Remember, aim bagus2 k :)

 

 

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Capati Blisters.

I heart: "Hee..muax. Me mau p hug my mumi2 first."
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I was awaken today by the sound of my stomach. Growling furiously demanding to be filled with solid edible substance. Tried to ignore it tapi susah betul. So i gave up.

Couz Kelor and i went into the kitchen and tingu2 apa buli dimakan or masak. Twas very hard actually to determine what we wanted to eat. So i popped the question to her.

"Ui. Kamurang ada tepung ka?"

She casually replied while shoving a bag of what seemed to be filled with white powdery substance.

"Ada. Ni kali ni. Ui ndala. Ni tepung pulut ni."

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Fast forward, we manage to find the flour and i prepared some simple capati-like pancake. I cooked.

Wait.

What? I CAN COOK? hahaha.

In the end, i did a pretty good job bah i think. *smiles widely* It wasn't that hard or anything like that at all. *speaks arrogantly*

Okaaay. Maybe i exaggerated a bit.

I developed blisters on the palm of my right hand and on the side of my right middle finger from holding the "sudip". The funny thing is, i was holding it for about 15-20mins tops ONLY.

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Payah rupanya memasak ni.

Si Shahrul, our lecturer yang suka "buli" sia di class once told me that, one way to tackle a man's heart is through his stomach.

Guess i need to find someone who could stand a lousy cook for the rest of his life then.

Like, seriously.

Hey cupid. Note that one k :)

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I Got Talent.

I heart: "Wei. man say pun ilovyo?"
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I actually went thru my old blog in FS. (Yes. the whole posts dated from 3 years back! LOL!) When suddenly one of the many posts i've "abandoned" so long finally caught my attention.

Maybe, just maybe mom and dad should've enrolled me into one of that special schools where they sharpen the skills of "gifted" children, like me. Coz i think i'm one of them.

PSYCHIC.

whoa! i know.

Below is part of the content i've extracted from that particular post. Please take note that this whole scenario happened 3 years back, June 8th 2005 to be exact. Jadi jangan terbingung k. Thank you.

"Ahh…i’ve always got this question stuck in my head..in the previous post i mentioned that i’ve found someone right??..well there’s no doubt about that..but..why do i feel so…insecure yet i know that i am secure with him?…like maybe will i lost him not only as a partner but as a dear friend in the future??..what if things don’t work-out like the way i(we) planned?…since i’ve got him,i feel so relieved but at the same time wonder a lot..alotta questions popped in my mind every single day..."

"...what IF this is just a phase?what IF this is all temporary?…i would hate myself for that…that’s why i am not really into commitment…afraid of gettin hurt..afraid of hurting the person u cared the most..afraid of doin’ wrong..or maybe afraid of LOSING him/her?..aarrgghh…hate it when this happens.."

The highlighted parts, have already happened. Heh. See, told you i've got talent.

Readin' what i've written years back caused me to reminisce of all the decisions i've made and taken throughout my short and very little encounter in relationship matters, throughout my life so far.

Came to think of it, semua sia yg minta clash ni. Of course on different grounds laa. Ndakan sama right?

BUT.

One thing for sure, it was never because of a third party okay. Just wanna be clear on that.

I guess, i am the one who is afraid of commitments after all huh? If this is true, then i shouldn't rush things. Somehow, i have the feeling i got talent remember? that i'd do the same thing i do "best" all over again; hurting people i care. *sighs*

I'm gonna take one step at a time this time.

Hey cupid. panah ngam2 ba next time.

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