I heart: "Sharon imisusomuch."
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Today's the last day of Sept huh?
Tomorrow is Dad's bornday. Love you
Dadi. :)
Raya 2008 falls tomorrow too.
How time flies.
Each passing day indicates that I am a step closer to home.
I am thrilled yet..afraid.
I wonder why.
I loathe it so much when I go all mellow again. Coz' when that happens, I tend to write sappy stories.
Like now.
Recently, I've been happy. Not that I wasn't happy before but, you know, just happier I guess? Or was I feelin' glad? Content?
I've always had tough times expressing what I truly feel towards a person. To have experience what I've experienced recently isn't helping at all. Well maybe it did. It helped me to build even thicker fortress. It's so thick, I feel like I am incarcerated by it.
A good buddy asked me recently.
"You really thought it's because of those shirts?"
I said yes. Though deep inside, my instinct tells me that it isn't. Or maybe that's what I wanted to believe.
But, I guess I've managed to condition myself not to be fooled twice. I had my defense up to protect myself this time. It was hard for you to gain my trust since the get-go but I guess it's even harder for me to trust or to even believe words now. Though I really really wanted to, you just have no idea. I guess you never did.
We're actually in the same boat, Bug.
You're so good when it comes to rationalizing situations. So, think for once. Why do you think i said what I've said? Why am I acting this way?
Have any of you ever been sky-high just to find yourself rocketed down and hit the ground? I did that to a person (it was never planned nor was it because of a third party) and I know it sucked coz' I got my fair share on it as well =p
As soon as you fell onto the ground, the wisest thing to do is to be proactive the next time around.
That's exactly what I am doin' Bug. You should've known better, riiiigggght? Xp
Pendek kata, I am just a silly girl who is trying to protect herself from getting' hurt, TWICE :)
Look, I apologize if I've ever disappoint or made you go berserk at times k. I did those with good reasons bukan saja ja suka2 mau buat.
I don't know whether you're gonna buy whatever shyte I write here coz' as you always like to put it, I am the ultimate LIAR, remember?
Well at least I've tried explaining.
Maybe.
Just maybe, this is why I am scared.
I just hate this feeling.
I am feeling down and sappy.
You get what that means?
I guess you don't.
Like always.
.xx.