Day 5.

Had a jog today tho' twas bit chilly out there. I find it harder to jog/exercise during cold weather, don't you guys think so? hmm.

Anyways, won't be blogging much today tho'. I've got some asses to get "rid" off by tomorrow morning. So i better keep myself pumping already!

p.s: Bug crosses my mind again today, which was very hard to ignore. Thus, i made a fool of myself (again) by sending him a short sms. As usual, no reply. *smacks head*

SILLY ME!

Til then.

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First of The Ninth Month.

It's already September. Approximately 2 months after Bug and i officially called it a quit. Back then, i expected myself to be able to get over him already around this time. Boy am i wrong. *sighs* But i am at least be able to control it already lah. I just have to spare myself some more time, i'll get there =)

Nonetheless, i still do miss him.

p.s: Bug, sasayka and i loathe myself for that.

I'll be okay. I'll get there. Give me time.

I promise.

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It Hurts. Alot!

I know i've posted one earlier. I am feeling so down that i feel like telling/jotting/writting on something. I chosed to blog.

Bug said, "Lveyou Sharon"

"Love you too Bug", i whispered to myself. If only you can see it. =(

It hurts alot not being able to tell him that. I don't wanna repeat the same mistake twice ='(

Can i make today an exception? i feel like breaking down. i brokedown.

='(

It hurts alot.

Happy 51st Independence Day, Malaysia! / Day 4.

Regardless of the above blog title, i did nothing today on this significant day. LOL!

I do ponder tho', of the current political scenario and some other current issues goin on in our country. (Which obviously i don't really care much coz they just suck.)

Anyways, last night my dad texted me wishing me "Happy Merdeka!" LOL! which i find very sweet of him and funny at the same time. So i replied him just the same =p It never fails to give me that certain kind of indescribable feeling whenever my dad or mom would contact me (i.e call or text) for no apparent reason. Cos when it happens, you know that they are thinking of you =)

[I THINK OF YOU ALL THE TIME TOO, MOM-DY. You guys are the L.O.V.E of my life. ILOVEYOU.]

Last night also, i texted and called Bug. Wanted to just have a casual talk with him. Goof around as usual. However, NOT suprisingly, he wasn't available. Hmmm. Guessed he was having such a blast or he takut bini dia marah kali tu. LOL!

I'll be out for a quick jog later on. Am trying to "burn" those excessive carbs from piggin' out last night. *sighs*

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Day 3.

...is a success!! yeayy! *pats own head*

I've had my last midterm paper for this sem on Compensation Management at 3:30pm today. Twas ok lah. Hmm..to be honest, i really think i screw it up this time. =p Anyways, i reached home around a quarter to 6pm. I hurried myself into the house, changed into appropriate attire and off i go! *clears throat* i went for a jog! xp

After the jog, i had an hour to prepare myself for class at 8-10pm. While in the class, i received an sms from Bug. To be frank, i was kinda suprised that he texted me. I never expected or thought that he would text me. It read:

"Iknow u missing me..muahahaha"

It's true tho' that i do miss him and that i think of him daily. I've come so far adapting myself not to show any emotions what-so-ever to him cos it only made me look like a fool. Upon receiving his latest text, to be honest, i don't know whether to be happy or mad. I think i am slightly happy to hear from him but i am mad as well. The sound of his text was as if he was teasing me. It's as if he knew that i am missing him and that it hurts alot. The last thing i need from him is exactly something like that. It's as if he did that on purpose to hurt me more.

Bug, tidak cukup ka?

Enough already, please.

Anyways, i just replied him casually and i just asked how he's doin. That's all. I restrained myself from saying more cos if i do, i'd fall back to square one.

I better get some rest now. I'm feeling a little bit more exhausted than usual. I'll update again soon k?

Nitey nytes!

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Shiznit!

First off, i am hungry. =/

Secondly, i just got back from class. Had midterm test on Performance Management System at 8pm earlier. The paper was okay laa. I bet it could be better if i've prepared enough tho' =p. Tomorrow i'll be having my last midterm paper on Compensation Management at 3:30pm. Lepas tu at 8-10pm continue class. Sir Shahrul wants to complete our syllabus as soon as possible since the fasting month (Ramadhan) is approaching SOOOON!

Tomorrow at 8pm also, is the Talent Night '08 organized by some association or clubs in our campus. I am planning to watch it but i guess i'll have to miss it then *shrugs*.

Earlier this morning in class, Sir Shahrul had reminded us, the final semester students to send our resumes for industrial training as soon as possible. He's afraid that we might not be able to make it on time. Thus, causing us to have difficulties in the future (i.e graduating).

As for me, the usual procrastinator, i had planned to do my practical somewhere in my hometown back in kk. However, accroding to him, since the management here is in haywire, he is afraid i might not be able to make it. Infact, he assured me that my chance of getting the approval of doing so is gonna be extremely slim. *deep sigh* This can only mean one thing. I need to do my practical somewhere here, in the West.

I've already gotten my ticket back to kk in early November. I was told that we were given time until 1st December to start our industrial training WHICH can only mean another thing; i need to get another return ticket back here. I'll do that as soon as i get a confirmed place for practical here. *sighs*

p.s: The thought of Bug crossed my mind few times today. Tho' i do miss him, i am trying my best to ignore it. =)

(Doesn't my dinner look yummy?? *sighs*)

Til then.
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Day 2.

...is a total failure. *sighs*

Today is supposed to be the second day of my jog "routine". I've been preparing myself physically, especially mentally (haha) but somehow luck doesn't seem to be happy with it. It was drizzling earlier on and towards 6pm it stopped. I was so happy, i jumped off my bed (yes yes..i had a nap) and put on my jogging shoes. As i stepped out of the house, it started to drizzle which soon turned out to be raining. -______-" so sien. Jadi pindik kata, sy teda jog la today. Maybe it's a good thing for me la also. Coincidently today is the first day of my 'menstrual cycle'. I bet i would've tire myself so much that i'll soon begin feeling pain around my lower abdomen and back.

Had midterm paper on Strategic Management today at 2:30pm. I did ok i guess. I'll be sitting for another paper tomorrow on Performance Management System at 8pm. Wish me luck on that too!

Owh by the way, while i was having my nap earlier today, i received a text from Celcom regarding Xpax Sunday or something like that. To make it short, it's another cool stuff from Celcom where you can talk for free the whole day on Sunday to any other Celcom numbers. You gained your credit/airtime from accumulated bonuses upon recharging your balance. Yea..a plan that i believe Digi or Maxis has started implementing. For further information regarding this, you can just simply dial #118* and follow the instructions. Voila!

Anyways, the moment i got that notification, the first person that i picture talking hours on the phone with was Bug. =( Adoii...can anybody help me get over him already? Anyone? *sighs* If only he knew how i was feeling about this whole "insignificant" thing between us before, he would probably understand that i do actually care for him. I just suck at showing/telling him. I miss saying "sasayka". It reminds me alot of him. Damnit!

p.s: I've updated the other blog as well and now i think it's time for me to shower.

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Sleep Deprived.

If you guys notice carefully, the timestamp shows that it is posted around noon, WHICH is usually bizzare of me doing so. I usually blog during the night.

However, being sleep deprived, i don't think i would be able to survive throughout the night without sleeping soundly. I haven't had any sleep since last night. The reason? i've had 2 cups of bloody Nescafes and they got me to stay awake throughout the night. Punya panat mau paksa tidur!

Anyways, there isn't much interesting incidents happening around me today. Infact, there is none AT ALL! I am just sitting here in the library pretending to do my assignment while waiting for Jane's class to end at around 12pm. Gonna accompany her for lunch and after that..hmm...i don't know...probably head back to apartment and get some rest. Owh and by the way, i've got another midterm paper tomorrow at 2:30pm. This time, it's on Strategic Management (don't dare ask me anything about it, coz i'll only dissapoint you. xp)

I was sooo hungry since last night and wasn't be able to get anything to eat. Habis stock of food supply baa hehehe. Jadi, tadi pagi i had fried kuey teow and 2 fishballs + 1 crab ball (wtf?? haha) Tomorrow's gonna be my second attempt to jog. Hope i'll be able to do that.

Next, is nothing. I really gotta stop now. Nature calls. I really need to pee. weeee~

Til then.

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Day 1.

Today, i am proud of myself.

I have actually managed to cut down (i mean lesser) carbs. At noon, i've only had small portion of rice (source of carbs). Had, H2O instead of other yummy beverages while in the evening i've managed to pull myself together for a jog!

*pats own head*

The jog was exhausting tho'. I really thought i couldn't manage to finish my target; which is 5 rounds. But hail to my "strong-willed-self" i manage to complete it!

However, here comes the hardest part. Food temptation during the night. I am trying my very best not to consume anymore carbs. Coz if i did, the jog i did earlier today would go to waste!

*clears throat*

My housemate, Shaz isn't helping at all!! She founds out that i am trying my best to keep on track with my diet plan (and also knowing that how i just love food!), she purposedly walked into the room offering food to my room mate and i. First, she asked what we would like to have for dinner coz she could get that for us, knowing that food court sini sudah tutup..punya awal! I had to reject her offer. I HAD TO! *sighs* About an hour later...there she is again. She waltzed into the room, this time stretching her arm to offer Cadburry's choc! (-______-)" see lah..how to live with all these tempting offerings??

Walaubagaimanapun, the hardest part is still yet to come : Jane's food a.k.a dinner of nasi goreng paprik from Wawa. Please note, Wawa serves the best food in Muadzam Shah as far as i concern. I doubt whether i can resist the temptation. Maybe, just MAYBE i could have a "pinch" of her dinner?? Heyy...nanti sy kepunan baa! hahaha.

p.s: I have updated my other blog. Will let you people know about it when i am ready okay? *winks*

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Exhausted.

Boy am i exhausted!

I have arrived Muadzam Shah from Shah Alam after spending the whole week at my cousin's. Had a blast being such a pig munching on food anytime i could. *sighs* But it was all good =)

Anyways, just wanna update you guys with something. Last night, i have finally managed to break Babes' heart once again. I believe it's for the best. I couldn't watch him hoping and holding on something which is not possible anymore. I decided to admit to him that i have "found" someone, which obviously i didn't. Well....MAYBE i did. But that's the thing, it's a past tense so yea.. He was crushed but he admit to me that he kinda knew that we would never be together again. I am so glad that he can take it like a man. Thanks babes.

Secondly, i have just created another blog account which i hesitate to share at the moment. Soon maybe?

Next, is nothing. Am just too tired to go on. Hectic day tomorrow. Eh wait, no. It's gonna be busy busy the whole week!

p.s: i've gained another kilo(s) during my one week holiday of pigging out with darling Kelor and Deasy. Tomorrow is going to be my first day of trying to work out.

inden's idea of working out = control food intake (cutting down the carbs and oily YUMMY stuff *sighs*), exercising (most probably jogging *sighs*) and consuming plenty of H2O instead.

target : Within two months / Before i am back to kk in early Nov. Whichever comes first.

WISH ME LUCK!

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