Day 3.

...is a success!! yeayy! *pats own head*

I've had my last midterm paper for this sem on Compensation Management at 3:30pm today. Twas ok lah. Hmm..to be honest, i really think i screw it up this time. =p Anyways, i reached home around a quarter to 6pm. I hurried myself into the house, changed into appropriate attire and off i go! *clears throat* i went for a jog! xp

After the jog, i had an hour to prepare myself for class at 8-10pm. While in the class, i received an sms from Bug. To be frank, i was kinda suprised that he texted me. I never expected or thought that he would text me. It read:

"Iknow u missing me..muahahaha"

It's true tho' that i do miss him and that i think of him daily. I've come so far adapting myself not to show any emotions what-so-ever to him cos it only made me look like a fool. Upon receiving his latest text, to be honest, i don't know whether to be happy or mad. I think i am slightly happy to hear from him but i am mad as well. The sound of his text was as if he was teasing me. It's as if he knew that i am missing him and that it hurts alot. The last thing i need from him is exactly something like that. It's as if he did that on purpose to hurt me more.

Bug, tidak cukup ka?

Enough already, please.

Anyways, i just replied him casually and i just asked how he's doin. That's all. I restrained myself from saying more cos if i do, i'd fall back to square one.

I better get some rest now. I'm feeling a little bit more exhausted than usual. I'll update again soon k?

Nitey nytes!

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Shiznit!

First off, i am hungry. =/

Secondly, i just got back from class. Had midterm test on Performance Management System at 8pm earlier. The paper was okay laa. I bet it could be better if i've prepared enough tho' =p. Tomorrow i'll be having my last midterm paper on Compensation Management at 3:30pm. Lepas tu at 8-10pm continue class. Sir Shahrul wants to complete our syllabus as soon as possible since the fasting month (Ramadhan) is approaching SOOOON!

Tomorrow at 8pm also, is the Talent Night '08 organized by some association or clubs in our campus. I am planning to watch it but i guess i'll have to miss it then *shrugs*.

Earlier this morning in class, Sir Shahrul had reminded us, the final semester students to send our resumes for industrial training as soon as possible. He's afraid that we might not be able to make it on time. Thus, causing us to have difficulties in the future (i.e graduating).

As for me, the usual procrastinator, i had planned to do my practical somewhere in my hometown back in kk. However, accroding to him, since the management here is in haywire, he is afraid i might not be able to make it. Infact, he assured me that my chance of getting the approval of doing so is gonna be extremely slim. *deep sigh* This can only mean one thing. I need to do my practical somewhere here, in the West.

I've already gotten my ticket back to kk in early November. I was told that we were given time until 1st December to start our industrial training WHICH can only mean another thing; i need to get another return ticket back here. I'll do that as soon as i get a confirmed place for practical here. *sighs*

p.s: The thought of Bug crossed my mind few times today. Tho' i do miss him, i am trying my best to ignore it. =)

(Doesn't my dinner look yummy?? *sighs*)

Til then.
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Day 2.

...is a total failure. *sighs*

Today is supposed to be the second day of my jog "routine". I've been preparing myself physically, especially mentally (haha) but somehow luck doesn't seem to be happy with it. It was drizzling earlier on and towards 6pm it stopped. I was so happy, i jumped off my bed (yes yes..i had a nap) and put on my jogging shoes. As i stepped out of the house, it started to drizzle which soon turned out to be raining. -______-" so sien. Jadi pindik kata, sy teda jog la today. Maybe it's a good thing for me la also. Coincidently today is the first day of my 'menstrual cycle'. I bet i would've tire myself so much that i'll soon begin feeling pain around my lower abdomen and back.

Had midterm paper on Strategic Management today at 2:30pm. I did ok i guess. I'll be sitting for another paper tomorrow on Performance Management System at 8pm. Wish me luck on that too!

Owh by the way, while i was having my nap earlier today, i received a text from Celcom regarding Xpax Sunday or something like that. To make it short, it's another cool stuff from Celcom where you can talk for free the whole day on Sunday to any other Celcom numbers. You gained your credit/airtime from accumulated bonuses upon recharging your balance. Yea..a plan that i believe Digi or Maxis has started implementing. For further information regarding this, you can just simply dial #118* and follow the instructions. Voila!

Anyways, the moment i got that notification, the first person that i picture talking hours on the phone with was Bug. =( Adoii...can anybody help me get over him already? Anyone? *sighs* If only he knew how i was feeling about this whole "insignificant" thing between us before, he would probably understand that i do actually care for him. I just suck at showing/telling him. I miss saying "sasayka". It reminds me alot of him. Damnit!

p.s: I've updated the other blog as well and now i think it's time for me to shower.

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Sleep Deprived.

If you guys notice carefully, the timestamp shows that it is posted around noon, WHICH is usually bizzare of me doing so. I usually blog during the night.

However, being sleep deprived, i don't think i would be able to survive throughout the night without sleeping soundly. I haven't had any sleep since last night. The reason? i've had 2 cups of bloody Nescafes and they got me to stay awake throughout the night. Punya panat mau paksa tidur!

Anyways, there isn't much interesting incidents happening around me today. Infact, there is none AT ALL! I am just sitting here in the library pretending to do my assignment while waiting for Jane's class to end at around 12pm. Gonna accompany her for lunch and after that..hmm...i don't know...probably head back to apartment and get some rest. Owh and by the way, i've got another midterm paper tomorrow at 2:30pm. This time, it's on Strategic Management (don't dare ask me anything about it, coz i'll only dissapoint you. xp)

I was sooo hungry since last night and wasn't be able to get anything to eat. Habis stock of food supply baa hehehe. Jadi, tadi pagi i had fried kuey teow and 2 fishballs + 1 crab ball (wtf?? haha) Tomorrow's gonna be my second attempt to jog. Hope i'll be able to do that.

Next, is nothing. I really gotta stop now. Nature calls. I really need to pee. weeee~

Til then.

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Day 1.

Today, i am proud of myself.

I have actually managed to cut down (i mean lesser) carbs. At noon, i've only had small portion of rice (source of carbs). Had, H2O instead of other yummy beverages while in the evening i've managed to pull myself together for a jog!

*pats own head*

The jog was exhausting tho'. I really thought i couldn't manage to finish my target; which is 5 rounds. But hail to my "strong-willed-self" i manage to complete it!

However, here comes the hardest part. Food temptation during the night. I am trying my very best not to consume anymore carbs. Coz if i did, the jog i did earlier today would go to waste!

*clears throat*

My housemate, Shaz isn't helping at all!! She founds out that i am trying my best to keep on track with my diet plan (and also knowing that how i just love food!), she purposedly walked into the room offering food to my room mate and i. First, she asked what we would like to have for dinner coz she could get that for us, knowing that food court sini sudah tutup..punya awal! I had to reject her offer. I HAD TO! *sighs* About an hour later...there she is again. She waltzed into the room, this time stretching her arm to offer Cadburry's choc! (-______-)" see lah..how to live with all these tempting offerings??

Walaubagaimanapun, the hardest part is still yet to come : Jane's food a.k.a dinner of nasi goreng paprik from Wawa. Please note, Wawa serves the best food in Muadzam Shah as far as i concern. I doubt whether i can resist the temptation. Maybe, just MAYBE i could have a "pinch" of her dinner?? Heyy...nanti sy kepunan baa! hahaha.

p.s: I have updated my other blog. Will let you people know about it when i am ready okay? *winks*

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Exhausted.

Boy am i exhausted!

I have arrived Muadzam Shah from Shah Alam after spending the whole week at my cousin's. Had a blast being such a pig munching on food anytime i could. *sighs* But it was all good =)

Anyways, just wanna update you guys with something. Last night, i have finally managed to break Babes' heart once again. I believe it's for the best. I couldn't watch him hoping and holding on something which is not possible anymore. I decided to admit to him that i have "found" someone, which obviously i didn't. Well....MAYBE i did. But that's the thing, it's a past tense so yea.. He was crushed but he admit to me that he kinda knew that we would never be together again. I am so glad that he can take it like a man. Thanks babes.

Secondly, i have just created another blog account which i hesitate to share at the moment. Soon maybe?

Next, is nothing. Am just too tired to go on. Hectic day tomorrow. Eh wait, no. It's gonna be busy busy the whole week!

p.s: i've gained another kilo(s) during my one week holiday of pigging out with darling Kelor and Deasy. Tomorrow is going to be my first day of trying to work out.

inden's idea of working out = control food intake (cutting down the carbs and oily YUMMY stuff *sighs*), exercising (most probably jogging *sighs*) and consuming plenty of H2O instead.

target : Within two months / Before i am back to kk in early Nov. Whichever comes first.

WISH ME LUCK!

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Happy or Sappy?

I texted Bug again today. I've asked for his answer on something. Err..no, actually i think it was more of a demand. xp

Anyways, to make things simple and short, i asked him whether or not, had he ever believed everything i said (i.e ily, imy or whatever feelings i've poured to him before) even once?

Twas kinda tough to get answer from him as usual but this time i insisted. After few texts of bugging him (i bet he got pretty annoyed hehe) he finally replied.

"YES IS D ANSWER", he said.

That simple answer somehow made me happy at least for myself la coz it shows that i've at least managed to show my true feelings to him and he believed 'em. To be honest, that's all really matter =)

Thanx for answering Bug. Tho' i dont know the validity of your answer, it still made me feel much better.


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Miley Cyrus's

Her song and lyric is soooo describing what i am feeling currently.

Miley Cyrus - 7 Things

I probably shouldn't say this
But at times I get so scared
When I think about the previous
Relationship we've shared

It was awesome but we lost it
It's not possible for me not to care
Now we're standing in the rain
But nothing's ever gonna change until you hear, my dear

The 7 things I hate about you

[Chorus]
The 7 things I hate about you (oh you)
You're vain, your games, you're insecure
You love me, you like her
You make me laugh, you make me cry
I don't know which side to buy
Your friends they're jerks
When you act like them, just know it hurts
I wanna be with the one I know
And the 7th thing I hate the most that you do
You make me love you

It's awkward and it's silent
As I wait for you to say
What I need to hear now
Your sincere apology
And when you mean it, I'll believe it
If you text it, I'll delete it
Let's be clear
Oh I'm not coming back
You're taking 7 steps here

[Chorus]
The 7 things I hate about you
You're vain, your games, you're insecure
You love me, you like her
You make me laugh, you make me cry
I don't know which side to buy
Your friends they're jerks
When you act like them, just know it hurts
I wanna be with the one I know
And the 7th thing I hate the most that you do
You make me love you

And compared to all the great things
That would take too long to write
I probably should mention
The 7 that I like

The 7 things I like about you
Your hair, your eyes, your old Levi's
And when we kiss, I'm hypnotized
You make me laugh, you make me cry
But I guess that's both I'll have to buy
Your hand in mine
When we're intertwined everything's alright
I want to be with the one I know
And the 7th thing I like the most that you do
You make me love you
You do (oh)



yes, i love you.


please take it away. i hate it.

What I Did...

My one week midterm break have just started. So here i am at my cousin's somewhere around Shah Alam since last Thursday.

Cousin Kelor and i were busy goin about town for the first 3 days. On the third day, we went to couz Una's place in Puchong. We spent time (and had fun) with cousin Abet and her friend, Sean (with a bunch of new acquaintances) at Poppy. We chatted, danced, drank and eventually got DRUNK! *coughs* well at least i did. -_____-"

The thing is, i thought i've managed to get over Bug already. Little did i know that i had only managed to convinced myself that and i was very good putting up a fake facade to deceive people when in fact i am only deceiving myself all along. It's really hurting me to admit this because i feel like i have failed myself once again. This time, it's severe.

I've noticed before and heard from others as well that a person is usually telling (or mumbling) the truth when he/she is in a drunk condition. Well, i have just proven myself that and it made me looked like a moron! While i was drunk during that wee hours, i didn't realized that i have actually made 2 phone calls to Bug. FORTUNATELY he was sound asleep. Only God knows what i would have said to him!

The morning next day, he texted me and asked what was wrong. Why did i called him during that hour and asked whether i was drunk and all. I was so blur, and checked my outgoing calls list. I was dumbfounded. I cannot believe i have made the calls! Damnit. After that ada lagi la we texted a bit more. He even joked and asked, "miss me oledi?" =(

If only i could tell him, "very much". Budu o sy!!

Anyhowsssss, last Sat night was a blast tho' twas only for a short period of time. Thanx to darling cuzzies and the rest of the new acquaintances. I hadn't had a blast since my arrival back here in the West. Looking forward for more on my next short holidays people! lols.

These are some of the photos taken.

(me trying to do the kawaii, to no avail)

(Sean and i, the two drunkheads!)

(With Alex, the chef)

(worshipping asam laksa + telur maggie)

(the trios: cousins)

p.s: Yes, i miss him still. But my plan is still on! (^_^)v.

Wish me luck you guys!

cheers~
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Feelin' BITCHY.

Mr. Shahrul returned our midterm test paper on TQM earlier this morning. For someone who had just started studying 1.5 hours on 5 chapters prior to the test, i am proud to say i scored a fat 65! itupun i've only answered 3 complete Qs and a quater on one question and '0' on the other question (tidak sempat cover baa). Each Q consists of 20marks! *pats own head* i wonder what i could've gotten if i had answered all 5 Qs huh? LOLS.

Anways, that's not what i am here for lah actually. I just really need and wanna tell you people that i think i am ready now. Not 100% ready but, almost close to that for a come back! i tell you people, you better treat a girl right coz once a good girl gone bad, it's gone forever (yes. i pinjam line si Rihanna. *rolleyes*)

Luckily he hasn't, and most probably won't contact me again. Coz if he does i would pick up the phone and give him a call and bombarded him with Qs. Trust me, i would this time! I've been doing a lot (i mean A LOT) of thinking lately. Which is a good thing for me. I've come to realized that what a fool i have been!! OMG! *smacks head on the wall*

Soooooo, i am proud to say that i am extremely close of getting over him and i am very happy for it! No more wondering, pondering and silly HOPING =D *pats own head* Jadi..i am again proud to admit that i am single and very much proud of it. (uina. berapa kali bah mau cakap 'proud' ni? i guess i am really happy after all =p)

p.s: I've got some plans in mind. Can't wait to be home to "launch it". Of course after i have fun here dulu laa. *evilish laugh* Once i am back, am longer a student and should prep myself to engage in the working scene...and do loads more. *winks*


"Behind Every BITCH Lies A Man Who Made Her That Way"

p.p.s: I am not a biatch (maybe to some i might be tho' haha), but anybody can turn me into one. *winks*

cheers~
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